Your gaze has turned away

Memories had kept me up at night,

You don’t notice this heart is turning grey

I know, there’s nothing left to say

But I long to hold you in my arms

Just like I did last time,

I long to kiss those lips that were never mine

Even when your gaze has turned away

And you only love me as a friend.

Who would have thought that she could be so happy? I remember like it was yesterday, the way she trembled when someone got closer to her and the way her eyes told a story that I could only imagine because she couldn’t talk about it. All I knew was that my father found her in the garbage while he was ordering at McDonald’s drive-thru.

He saw something moving the bags of garbage, it was hairy and small. Intrigued, he got off his car and took a closer look, it was a little dog with blond hair, although its muzzle was black. With fearful eyes, she saw my father who took her and gave her a home and a name, Clary.

Even though she already had a home her sad and fearful eyes persisted. The first time I saw her she barked at me with rejection as she did with everyone except my father. Due to her constant depression my father gave her to me to see if her depression could go away.

I got her into the car and all the way she was staring at me with her eyes wide open with distrust. When she arrived home, she could not stop shaking and her little paws weren’t strong enough to hold her with her head held high. I introduced her to my two other dogs Sookie and Jessy and she stood still lying on the ground.

The first days she began to walk the house with curiosity and silence when no one was watching. Then a few days more she started to run all the house with Sookie. Her blond hair began to shine like the sun and her eyes abandoned all the fear and sadness.

She began to eat more and even gain a lot of pounds. I remember that the happiest moment of my life with her was when she smiled at me for the first time. When she wrinkled her eyes and made a smile, and I thought to myself, who would have thought that she could smile?

Sometimes the air gets cold

When the night is so alone

The crashing waves reminds me of a song

That I used to play in my mind not long ago

Sitting in the dark

Next to the palm trees and my thoughts

What could I have done to make them stay?

Life goes on and I’m sitting here alone

Waiting for a sign

To tell me they are fine in the afterlife

The wind caresses my face

Drying my tears while I look at the dark ocean

I can barely see the horizon were the sky and the ocean meet

Even the moon had gone just like them

But maybe I will see them again

Just like I will see the moon again

The wind is whispering

As I’m walking into the turbulent waters

The ocean is pulling me away from the shore

I can no longer breath

The waves are pulling me under

As life is drifting away from me, I see them

They are telling me not to give up on life

Because life is too precious to let pass by

I begin to see the memories we shared

Giving me the strength to make it back to shore

Where I stand alone, thinking once more

But this time I’m going to live

Remembering who they were

Finding the beauty in life

Loving me as I was, as I am and as I will be.