I have something to admit...

I am not normal.. Im far from it.

I have ADHD and an imperfect mentallity.

I have OCD, and it is hard not to let it define me...

I have something to admit...

Im not normal, I feel fucking sick.

I have anxiety and it is on a switch,

I have depression, and you best believe its for a reason!

I have something to admit...

Mentally im sick...

Sick of the way my mental illness tries to bind me..

Sick of the way my mind working on its own is enough to be what defines me?..

My youth is no excuse for what is happening.

Every one wants to give advice but never think about me.

I mean when they giving it they are saying it for themselves,

cause every single person is another puzzle without a hope.

Tell me what would happen if I went out like Robbin Williams?

Taking my life one day at a time like the world goes dime by dime,

Just know its a new day but if your reading this just know its too late!

Aint gonna deal with all you fakes!

Telling you I dont put up with no snakes.

Thinking this is just a pep talk to myself?

Well sow hat if it is im a monster that will only ever help myself!

Yeah I am a monster within my own mind,

done with life but I prayed for you brother.

You were always the one telling me that I should stick around,

but now you put yourself 6 feet under ground.

Fuck I hate myself for not being able to pull you back around,

but how pittiful does that sound?

I hate the world without you here brother,

I hate the way we were treated by every other.

I knew we were gonna survive from dime to dime but damn...

But its a new day and if your reading this just know I couldnt relate...

Its a new day and my brothers gone away,

Its a new day and if your reading this just know its probably too late!