Goodbye Kiss
What will become of me
After you're gone?
When I'm alone
When there's no one left who cares?
What will I do with all the hours
Who will ask about my day
Who will help me get back to life
Who will tell me that I'm worthy?
Who will hold me when I cry
Who will know how to stop the shakes
Who will help me work past my fears
Who will notice that I've cut?
Who will even give a shit that I'm cutting?
Who will take the blade out of my hand?
Who will make me feel like I matter?
Who will care? Who will love me?
What will be the point
In waking up each morning?
Why would I go to work?
Why do I need money?
Why bother paying the bills?
I won't need to put gas in my car
When I have nowhere to go
I won't need my cell phone
There's no one to talk to
I won't need to go to the store
Cuz there will be no one here to eat
I won't need lights when you're gone
Cuz the darkness is coming for me
But that's not the right thing to say
That's not the image to project
I'm supposed to be mature
An adult who feels things correctly
I'm supposed to take care of myself
So I'll dry my eyes
I'll quit my screaming
I'll pick my dumb ass up off the floor
I'll quit pleading at your feet.
I'll pretend to have some pride
I'll pretend I'm worth something
I'll save up my tantrums
to be unleashed when I'm alone
Soon enough,
I'll have nothing but time
Congrats on your opportunity
You really do deserve the best
You are lucky to escape this shit town
You'll do great in a new state
Don't you worry about me
I'm a big girl, I'll be just fine
You put me behind you when you go
You go and don't look back
Just let me have you these last few nights
Just love me a few more days
Love me until you can't anymore
Take me in your arms right now
Hold me close and mend my soul
Erase the world with the magic you bring
Use your hands to make me forget
Use your lips to bring me to life
Skin on skin, I love the way we fit
Make love to me one last time
One last or 100 before you go
Remember me this way, lying beneath you
Remember me being happy in your embrace
I'll smile and wave and wish you luck
As you exit and my world ends
As you leave me with one last goodbye kiss
