Paralyzed
I can feel the bags under my eyes growing heavy
When you walked out the door I wasn't ready
The moment kills the pride
And like a demon I was born to hide
Standing on a bank of shadows
Listening to your footsteps
I hold in my hand
The very thing
That meant the most
I wore it around my neck everyday
But yours isn't gone it's in your brain
You know love is a treacherous thing
But we cling to it so we can breathe
Hold on to what we have
It's the time of the beast in my head
Frustration begins to seep in my skin
Keeping it in never speaking again
Leverage I once held is drifting away
You're going to do what you want anyway
But the blisters on my hands tell me this line
Even though I'm dead inside I'm still alive
Break the glass of the morning
I look at my reflection and see my story
The book has a few chapters left
But you don't listen to what they've said
Take a second to open your eyes
I'm still here I'm by your side
With your hand in mine
We can take on this world one step at a time
-C.W
Dear God
Dear god you always told me to hold my head up high
But when the queen of my castle tells me goodbye
I relinquish the rights I have as a man and begin to cry
Never shed the tear in her presence
The rain falling is a beautiful essence
And the moon has a nice crescent
Dear god the life I'm in feels so wrong
Without the love of my life in my arms
It doesn't feel quite like I belong
Turn up the heat and I'll never quit
Freeze my heart and that's still not it
Cut me down and I stand taller
Knock me over and I'll recover
Waiting for you in this depression slumber
You think I'll quit you'll soon discover
I've got more heart than Rocky Balboa
Dear god I put my hands up to give it all to you
To take away the scars and heal my bruise
Pull me together and fix my wounds
Cause this life isn't worth living without you
Dear god I'm only a man with his mind focused on love
I feel the pain since she left and nothing is enough
To release the sorrow in my mind
To fill this void in due time
To make her realize I can change
Show her my heart of steel can actually break
Dear god I'm holding out for her as long as I can
Give me the strength to make her mine again
Open her eyes and let her see
We're simply meant to be.
-C.W
Snagging Mars
I'm not sure
What to say
Not looking forward
To the next day
Pills not helping
Crush them up
Half fucking empty
Touch the cup
Sick of this tired of that
Crawling skin waving bat
Fucking up reckless
Sick and helpless
Buried alive
Worlds do collide
Keep on wishing
Shooting stars
As I'm fishing
Snagging Mars
Nothing ideal
It's preposterous
Numb yet I feel
So lost in this
Thinking about death
An awful lot
As if my last breath
Was a blood clott
If life is Broadway
I'm not a dancer
I'd rather not say
I think this is cancer
My only conclusion
Before I'm in the ground
Is to hope for profusion
My written voice passed down
Daniel
Jacob
Dabney
And
My
Blah
Fucking
Blah
06-24-16
Whore Of A Heart
So what is depression?
Wish I could say
It's a meter attached with
Aggression
No choice you pay everyday
Sometimes you can
Just wake up
Fucked right from the start
And sometimes it can
Put a heavy strain
On Your heart
You can suddenly cry or
Laugh like a maniac
Or my personal
Favorite the no warning
Panic attack
Sometimes shit can leave
You on the floor
Crying never
Wanting any more
It’s a Rollercoaster
Most of the time
Psychological
Psychical
Mental
Pitiful
It’s only there
To make
You fuckin
Hate
Your soul
It's a power you
Cannot control
Mind and heart
Usually taking the wheel
And its not very often
That you can make a deal
Daniel
J
Dabney
06-17-16
And my fucked up mind
《! ¤!Bury! !Us!¤ !》
I’ll be damned
Uncle Sam
Take more of my check
As you bump
Up the cost
In our land
Please try to
Help me understand
Why do your
Minions get rich
Yet this disabled
Old man
Is picking up
Empty cans
In a ditch?
Safe to say
Social Security
Doesn’t cover his bills
Or help at all
With his misery
And oh
Did I mention
He’s a veteran?
That step that he’s
Missing is a limp
From defending
A country
Depending
On this man
With a gun
On a ship
Pay attention
You pile of fuck
Worried about your
Gold
We have little children
That
Sleep outside
In the cold
You’re setting
Our youth up
To turn and unfold
This shit is serious
And I am curious
As you
Bury us
Bury us
Does it occur to you
Time will build
A new population
A new world creation
A filled generation
Set To burn down
Our Nation
We are delirious
and furious
And you
Bury us
Bury us!
It will happen
When time
Makes the call
The sun will set
In chaos and
Your reign of
Greed shall fall
Daniel
J. 06-17-16
Dabney
And
My
Fucked
Up
Mind
Grain Of Salt
Deliberately placing
Yourself into
My thoughts
Drown your bullshit out
With a few extra shots
One single glimpse
Of your repugnant face
Makes me want to
Rinse my own eyes
Out with mace
In disgust I watch you
Swerve into my lane
And I just want to
Smash you
With a five ton crane
Eager to show you
Something of a wrath
I'm not a damn genius
But I understand the math
I stand here a man
Heartfelt and sincere
I'll dumb this Shit down
So you're hearing it clear
Simplify so your whore mind
Can decipher this fact
Two minus one equals you
Getting the fuck off my sack
Hope I can say this
Without sounding like a Dick
One second with you?
No thanks!
I'd rather be salmonella sick
I'd prefer embrace the plague
Or develop an engulfing rash
Than deal with your
No class having
White trash ass
Taken with a grain of salt
As you're the salt in my grain
If your skull sheltered a slug
I'd inject salt into your brain
I could continue to jest
On things I'd rather do
Such as making you digest
An old hobo shoe
If I had the rhythm
I'd write you a song
Regarding the depths of Hell
Where you belong
All bullshit aside
I wish you the best of luck
But if I see you out walking
I'll jump the curb in my truck
Well fuck that was harsh
I take it all back
I'd feel classier hitting you
In an old Cadillac
I really don't care if you drop dead and you're Hell bound
But if you were I'd drop a deuce
6 feet above
Where you're downed
Daniel
Jacob
Dabney.........
and my fucked up mind
04-19-16