Some things to understand about me: (that I, myself, should know by now, but consistently forget).

1. My approach is 99.9% of the time completely wrong.

2. I may say I understand something, but there is a 50/50 chance I will walk away & have no idea what just happened.

3. I don’t get my feelings hurt easily PER SE , but I will absolutely take everything personally.

Lastly, and this is the most important one -

4. If I care about you, you will damn well know it. And that shit is forever.

In the first I sat idle, useless, alone

A statue in memorium

As if you’d carved me into stone

The second woke me startled

I felt no Earth beneath my feet

Tumbled through the ether

Felt your hot, white heat

In one, you simply walked away and drifted out of sight

I woke up crying that night

The sweetest left me reeling; hungry for more

In my saddest,

You were waves and I was shore

My favorite was of you and I lying comfortably in bed

And all the things that swirl around, were quiet in my head

In the last and final dream I had, no image carried through

There was just a whisper; the lonely ghost of you