No matter what happens in life, only you can make yourself stronger or weaker. Obstacles test us all, but we can rise above anything. Never let anyone or anything defeat you. In good times, let love be your guide. In dark times, let anger turn into resolve. Your enemies will fall, and your friends will grow. Just by the belief and knowledge that you will rise above anything.

You feel like me losing everything that I never knew belonged to me. You feel like my lungs choking my heart. My veins struggling to pull oxygen from its strangled mass. And the sweet relief of that breath as it releases just enough pressure for my heart to skip half its next beat.

You feel like the wind screaming through my windows on long winding roads. The noise pulsing through me and rattling me internally. The water splashing my feet atop the cool, lake rocks. And the sharp intake of the almost summer air hitting my lungs as your eyes crawl their way across my anxious skin.

And then I don’t care what you feel like.

You are hands raking through my hair. My hot tear-stained face pulled into yours. You are fingers under clothes and nails in skin. You are mouths touching mouths and breaths shared in the too early morning. Whispers dancing across my nerve endings. You are my waist being pulled in close and my arms reaching up to find the back of your neck.

You are falling. And I have fallen.

Touched, by the things that you showed me

Loved, the way you made me feel

And in turn. I was Hurt

by the things that you said

And was killed by the silence you spread

And with no hopes of seeing light

What happened next was that I..

Fell

Into the darkness of my pit

Knowing well

Exactly what I would commit

Reminiscing and forgetting about the times I once had

It's all slowly, drifting at bay

I didn't change, didn't ask for help

’Cause hope was far away

Just fell

I surrender

To the demons in my mind

While I remember

Exactly what I Was trying to find

Happiness, love success is but a dream now that I’m gone

They say life gets easier with time, but that’s easier said than done

(chorus)

(Be strong) Is what they say when they don't realize, this is me all the time

(Hold on) I just cant hold on to the pain in my mind

(In time) na na na no na no, there’s no time to waste

I must leave, I just must escape

They say it's scary and they cant see what I see

But now that I'm gone (hey), I’m finally free

(choir)

(chorus)

(Just fell) into the darkness of my pit

(just fell) knew, I knew what I commit

(Just fell) wanna reminisce wanna forget about those times

(just fell) those times are gone, it's far away, and now i...

I Just fell

Touched, by the things that you showed me

Loved, the way you made me feel

And in turn. I was Hurt

by the things that you said

And was killed by the silence you spread

And with no hopes of seeing light

What happened next was that I..

Fell

Into the darkness of my pit

Knowing well

Exactly what I would commit

Reminiscing and forgetting about the times I once had

It's all slowly, drifting at bay

I didn't change, didn't ask for help

’Cause hope was far away

Just fell

I surrender

To the demons in my mind

While I remember

Exactly what I Was trying to find

Happiness, love success is but a dream now that I’m gone

They say life gets easier with time, but that’s easier said than done

So I Fell

Into the darkness of my pit

Knowing very well. (Mhm)

Exactly what I just commit

Reminiscing and forgetting about the times I once had

It's all slowly drifting at bay

I didn't change, I didn't ask for help

’Cause my hope was far away

So I just fell

(Be strong) Is what they say when they don't realize, this is me all the time

(Hold on) I just cant hold on to the pain in my mind

(In time) na na na no na no, there’s no time to waste

I must leave, I just must escape

They say it's scary and they cant see what I see

But now that I'm gone (hey), I’m finally free

(choir)

I Fell (I fell, I fell, I fell, I fell I fell)

Into the darkness of my pit (to the darkness)

Knowing very well

Exactly what I just commit ( oh yes I did)

Reminiscing and forgetting about the times I once had

It's all slowly drifting at bay

I didn't change, I didn't ask for help (oh nooo)

’Cause my hope was far away

I Just fell

(Just fell) into the darkness of my pit

(just fell) knew, I knew what I commit

(Just fell) wanna reminice wanna forget about those times

(just fell) those times are gone, it's far away, and now i...

I Just fell

Last night I had a dream.

It was quick and to the point.

A flash of steel.

A clean slice.

And, just like that, it was done.

A vertical line

On my arm.

From

Elbow to wrist.

I lifted my head

Quickly.

Wide eyed.

And crazed.

You were shocked

As you met my gaze.

The blood

Shed

Rapids.

It gushed, in rivers.

And

Just like that

I was dead.

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Generally speaking—

—our efforts in Living are vain,

everything is too tight, too plain—

—I’ve strived [sic!] for a storybook life,

and cut my days short with a knife—

—ask us to mingle, and say I could,

but what perchance would make it Good?

—should we exchange more than words,

scouring lives across the floor boards—

—that’s more mess than my container

can make without spilling over—

—odd if emptiness cannot be poured

best be left unsatiated—

—than in turn contaminated

a soul was anchored once though barely—

—know there’s nothing here now, really

and I am sorry—

—I am

I’ll not hurt—

—here

I’ll not hurt

—now

I’m sorry—

—I am

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#Suicide #Challenge

How fragile you are.

Like dragonfly wings.

Your tender feelings

In love.

Be careful where

You put your love, little bug.

Remember,

How fragile you are.

What doesn't kill me, makes me stronger.

What does kill me, makes me feel alive.

If flying really does mean dying,

Why not die and fly away with time?

Spend eternities soaring

In flight?

Free of bonds,

Of people,

And talk;

Unnoticed, yet alive.

Alive, for the first time,

After life, and after death.

Alive, in the skies,

Flying alongside the birds,

Feeling the wind

And the breeze,

Playing in air,

Unaffected by ties

That bound us,

Pull us back,

And make us see flight

Meant for just birds.

Meant for just things with wings,

Unaware of the wings

And power within,

That only shows up,

When you truly fly away.

I want that flight,

Forever and ever,

With no looking back,

And to feel the wind

Gently play with my hair,

Free to move,

Without the boundations

Of life.

It’s been seeping in, silently creeping

Got me geeking while it violently seeks

Got me sippen; rippen weed for peace

Bleeding internally, mortally functioning

Hope I never say ‘Fuck it’ I wanna live

If I kick the bucket at my own head

Know I tried my best

This rain is sleet, my pain the beat

Of my heart, carved some scars

Life did the rest, bullies me dead

Thank a phoenix I resurrect

Flap my wings till the ashes spark my Bic

Hope I never say ‘Fuck it’ I wanna live

Dopamine repression

Slow crawl forward

Lightening regression

Nothing scares me more

Than this living, god don’t get me

Devil left me on the floor

With these thorough words

To describe my pain, this depression

Is my curse and my sword

God I’m lost, a toss up between

A good man and a broken mess

Look free, my prisons invisible

Jumped on a crazy train one summer

Been trying to catch a buzz from my youth

This depression is a bummer

Slowly killing me to tell the truth

Always been a runner, gunner

Fuck it, just because bridge burner

Slow learner, unconcerned with tomorrow

These days it’s a fuck I’ve gotta give

Before I slip under

Throw a rope my way I wanna live

Dopamine repression

Slow crawl forward

Lightening regression

Nothing scares me more

Than this living, god don’t get me

Devil left me on the floor

With these thorough words

To describe my pain, this depression

Is my curse and my sword

Swear I’m gonna fight

Fear has been my pilot

Far too long, crash that flight

Healing can be violent

I get by, I stay high

Turns the chatter back to silence

Do or die there is no try

Fuck Jedi, from the darker side

Gotta get a grip, flip the script

Hope I never kick the bucket at my own head

I wanna live

Dopamine repression

Slow crawl forward

Lightening regression

Nothing scares me more

Than this living, god don’t get me

Devil left me on the floor

With these thorough words

To describe my pain, this depression

Is my curse and my sword