Lighting the darkness
Always caught up in the why
I am trodden upon by my
own emotional feet
that clumsily stumbles
through minefields of drama
Lost in darkness
flailing about aimlessly
reaching for that solid
piece of fluidity of
emotions that can anchor me
But there is a brightness,
that sheds light on
the path of consciousness
bringing me out of this
stupor that has engulfed
the vastness of my focus
And brings a horizon,
like the sun to the sky,
to my life from the
deepest emotions
lighting my darkness
quiver
.
thunder has struck me
thunder has blurred my lines
I did not see the storm
nor have I felt the rain on my skin
the wind did not blow through my bones
but the earthquake has swallowed me up
all those years have passed
and without feeling anything under my fingers
still
I got burned by the fire
without ever walking on the grass
still
I smell it from underneath
the dirt covered me . ground eating me whole
through decades I still have not reached
can’t climb out
from something that never was
but still felt lost
.
Revealed
Frustration building,
Crackling like static under my skin
Tears flowing from mocha eyes,
Birthed from containing rage inside
Anger steadily mounting,
A violent storm brewing
Always keeping my mouth shut,
My lips locked tight
I fear that someday,
All the lightning and thunder
Will break free,
Pouring down in wrathful reign
I try to calm such feelings,
Stop them from ever bursting,
But, there are days
Where I simply long to scream
Everything, all the anger
And ugliness within,
Erupting for all to see
The eye of the storm,
Revealed
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The Best Years of My Life
As I walk onto the campus,
Their words ring in my ears,
These are the best years of your life.
The first year I was new,
Too unsure to make new friends.
I'd let them come to me,
and when they didn't,
I'd just pretend.
The second year just came and went,
Passing all my classes.
I gained some friends that year though,
Thanks to my good grades and my glasses.
Junior year was hard,
Just like the seniors said,
When I get home,
I do my homework, do my chores,
Then I die in bed.
My last year was full of promise,
Looking to the future!
But then I look at all the scars,
That I got that in that short while.
So, I sigh.
As I walk onto the campus,
Their words ring in my ears anew,
Enjoy yourself,
These are the best years of your life.
#school
No Way Out
Today
and yesterday
and the day before
I buried
that son of a bitch
for the third time
but he wouldn’t
stay buried
he kept rising
to the surface
little droplets
of sanguine reminders
seeping out
and torturing
my soul.
But this time,
would be
the last time,
as I tied
cement blocks
to ropes
and pitched
him overboard.
As I watched
the rope unwind
taking him with it
I became entangled
in the knots
becoming bound
with him
in salty brine
for eternity.
Disconnected
My mind lies somewhere at the bottom,
A jumble of disconnected pieces
The edges, slivers of jagged silver,
Too misshapen to form back together
There, the fragments rest,
Glimpses of more cheerful times,
Memories long since laid to rest
A swirling pit of despair,
A vortex brewed from fear,
A cage to warp all the sanity left
My mind lies somewhere at the bottom,
A jumble of disconnected pieces
That can never be put back together
Angel Under Shatterproof Glass
Yesterday, today, tomorrow,
I find her perfectly preserved
and waiting for me
in a world under my finger,
just outside my grasp,
so close that I know
this will be the moment
that I finally touch her.
This will be the moment
that my grey eyes
joyfully drowning in blue light
finally see her love,
real and raw and warm,
instead of an oh-so-realistic
pixelation of the truth -
the mirage I always mistake
for honesty until
that very last moment
when I realize my finger,
starved for touch,
cannot extend,
no matter how desperately it reaches,
through shatterproof glass
to touch her wings
on the other side.