Silence appears

To not be my friend.

As it presses in from every side,

Attempting to suffocate me

With its loneliness.

There is no one around,

No one to make a single noise.

So I stand

In the vast emptiness,

Hugging this silence against my eardrums,

Wishing for freedom from its grasp.

For this nothing around me

Makes me wonder.

Am I nothing more

Than the silence itself?

For I am truly alone.

Fear melted my insides as I watched the car pull away. My unease grew to terror as the feeling of emptiness gripped my heart and soul. He was gone along with his angry words and selfish denial.

I was alone. 

My terrified brain tried to process the confusing messages my heart and mind were sending. I shuddered and sobbed as the crunch of tires on rocks melted away. So great was my pain and fear my knees touched the ground the rough rocks bruising my skin. There I knelt. 

Alone. 

He was gone.    

You were my

coffee and cigarettes

Just like the smoke

You've disappeared

leaving me alone

to deal with the withdrawals