Sun Shining on my Grave
I close my eyes and enjoy
the cold against my skin
I brush my brittle fingers against my weathered cheek
smiling shakily as I see
the sun shining through the window onto my grave
onto my grave
and I don’t feel the warmth
I don’t feel the warmth
the cold of winter on a summer’s day
and my only regret as I close my eyes
finally
is that I never enjoyed.
Never enjoyed
enough.
the End.
the sun had long since left my eyes
leaving nothing but the cold
and the trees, the leaves that crunch, dead
under my feet when i walk
when I walk.
I am immersed in a permanent winter
where the water over which i used to graze my fingers
had long since frozen over
i can no longer break the surface
i can walk on the ice that had once only been a layer
and i could feel the water warm on my skin
but it's all dry
I walk amongst the trees that had long since died
and I know
I know that Winter is ending
Winter is ending
Doctor of the Self
I look at you in the surface of the water and I see
something broken
something to be fixed
I see a crack in the ice that you call your face
no longer immovable, untouchable; melting
You see I am a Doctor and not the medical kind
the kind who self diagnoses, who knows without knowing
that you have an incurable illness
When I say I look at you as the water ripples across your paper face
breaking it down and washing it away with the mask
I really mean that it had only taken me so long to realize
that I hadn’t been speaking to someone else
It only took me so long to realize that I had been
yelling at my own reflection
I am a Doctor
a Doctor of the self
I have a PhD in anxiety and a masters in depression
I got my bachelors in sadness when I was only eight years old
I was advanced
though only now do I realize that advanced is not necessarily conducive with good
I look at me in the surface of the water growing ever colder and I see
something broken
something to be fixed
I see a ripple in the ocean on which I am reflected
and I realize I am no longer looking into the water
I am drowning in it
But there still is my reflection
a smile plastered on its face
Forced
Fallen Out Of Sync
The waves have fallen still
in the water at my feet
I stare out across the ocean
into the vast nothingness
where our hearts used to be
where they once laughed
and fluttered to a beat only we could hear
but our hearts have stopped conversing and
our beats
our beats have fallen out of sync
and now the only beat I hear
is the sound of the ocean
beating against the empty space
in my soul
And
They
Crest
Like
The
Pain
I
Hide
there.
Daffodils and Daisies
I lie amongst the daisies,
the daffodils and smile
as the sun shines down upon me
and my heart runs a mile.
I am happier than ever
and I can’t contain my love
when I soar through the clouds
in the open sky above.
Our hearts do beat together
as the sun laughs along
and we frolic through the daffodils,
the daisies all day long
River Drums and Heartbeats
Tranquil waters burble across the riverbed,
Sending waves of rested sand peacefully toward the sea
What once was still is filled to the brim
With life, with wonder, with love
Your eyes are full of stars and seashells,
Glinting off the sun in your soul
You radiate warmth and smiles,
Like the flow of the water when I love you
You are my heart, our shared drums
Pounding out the song of the riverbed
You have become my salvation, my sunny beach
Where I’d go to bask in the light of your smile
As my heart beats along with yours and my soul follows suit,
The gentle dub of our combined existence lulls me into a contented slumber
Sated.
Happy.
Finally, loving each other as one
Life
Spring crests like the waves of the ocean
the cries of the father, the mother
beckoning the gulls from the skies above
They circle overhead
as life is created
The water warms them as they rock
nestled inside its arms of tranquility
and the three of those who lie amongst the sand
The waves
cry with rapture, with laughter, with joy
as life is created
Here’s a link to my google doc!
https://docs.google.com/document/d/11uI26sPg7hpE9O08RyttgvEKsP0o3mgr9ydg34Uw0iQ
I sincerely would love to hear some constructive criticism regarding my first attempt at fantasy prose. My usual genre is poetry, but I would love to get better and learn how to more effectively build a world and the characters within that world. Hopefully you like what I have so far!