I feel kind of emotionless to this world but have all my emotions going crazy inside of me

I don't know if I want to smoke, sleep or cry

Dry your eyes they say

Things will get better they say

But when doubt sinks in and not praying anymore has become my sin

Running away from what's already within

Masking pains with smiles

Encouraging words to you meanwhile I'm dying

My soul is crying

I looked to you as my sunshine on a cloudy day

But my love has turned into hate

Looking in your eyes

As you choke me

No I couldn't breathe, but I didn't fight it

My mind drifted and I just stayed still

I just stayed still

Watching you

Hoping that you snap out of it

As my mind race

Body pace

Reality hits me in the face

The build up hate

Another depression day

Don't remember when I last ate

Silent nights

Hidden cries

Darkness fills my inside

Lies like the smile on my face

I've lost faith

Soaking in this dark place

I'm drowning in my own misery