lights in the mist.
And I don’t want to be when and where the angels fall, weeping and gnashing for them all, lack of repentance; a fantastic appall
I don’t want to be when I’m without you no matter what you do, you could lie to me through and through, you could kiss her the way I kiss you
...With color, shape, and feeling...
Yours used to leave me reeling, now I find myself nightly kneeling, strongholds and principles violently peeling and there’s a line in the sand
Loyalty and love went hand-in-hand, our romance was a candyland, full of golden flecks like the river panned, like shining flakes in schnapps
As soon as the cap from your canister pops, it’s like time stands still, it’s like the world stops, that first precious inhale and my heartbeat DROPS, pounding ever so shallowly
Nicking my throat, blood does occur, as I swallow what we finally were, turning my song voice into a guttural purr, inside it’s not my heart that’s astir, but a teeming, insatiable thirst
For the one that I have come to put first, the one that threatens to make my lungs burst, the one that pollutes the breath against which my lips are pursed and there are no lights in the mist
I’m balled as tightly as a fist, wrap the leather around the wrist, tightly now before I’m missed, before aerosol takes me away
You’re more than my habit, you’re the only way, you’re the light at the end, you’re the bright of new day, you’re everything I wish I could say, you’re all I want to consume
… And with you in my heart, there is no more room
aster
I didn’t forget.
Silence almost never means that.
I remember a lot that I never talk about.
But you wouldn’t know that.
Would you even care?
You’ll do those things for her but you didn’t do less than that for me.
Don’t.
I don’t need anything from you.
I don’t need to do anything for you.
I may not speak but I pay attention.
I learned how to keep going.
I won’t burn for you.
You’ve asked me before.
I gave in.
Over and over.
Not anymore.
If I could have one wish,
it would be that
we end up together,
holding hands
and later,
making soft, sweet, tender love
underneath
diamond studded black skies...
it would be that
we end up together,
reminiscing passionate kisses
by the sparkling waters
on the banks of Seine,
at twilight...
If I could have one wish,
it would be that
we end up together.
~Love.
It is terrifying
to think of a day when
you won’t be here,
with me...
when the memories of us
will be permanently buried
and long forgotten...
It is alarming
to even think of a moment
wherein I won’t be able
to remember you anymore...
my heart aches and soul bleeds,
desperately trying to find you
in everything I see, hear and touch.
It is scary to envision
my tomorrows without you.
But misfortune favors me,
and all of this may very soon
manifest into reality, for
I don’t know how to tell you
that I love you, my dearest...
and I don’t know how to
ask you to stay.
But I hope you do,
anyway.
~Love.
Someday,
we’ll meet again
and I’ll tell you
that I’ve loved you more than
I’ve loved myself...
I’ll tell you
that I’ve missed you
and that nothing’s been right
without you...
I’ll tell you that
I’ve been a field of dead flowers
rotting away with no sunlight...
I’m a once mellifluous voice
with no lullaby to sing
and no one to sing for
that’s now faded and hoarse....
I’ve been wishing and hoping that
I could obliterate these agonizing
moments that I have to endure
without you here...
You are all I want now.
You are all I want now.
You are all I want now.
Someday,
we’ll meet again
and I’ll tell you that
you will always
have all of me,
forever.
~Love.