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I am equivalent to infinity
The sum of all these parts of me
Added up from an early age
Multiplied by every last written page
Subtracted by my loss of control
Divided by the glory & grime of my soul
Calculate all that I’ve loved & I’ve lost
The formula that displays the lines I have crossed
Deduct the misuse of my precious time
Enumerate the flaws within my design
A fraction for every last beat of my heart
Deviated from the memories that pull me apart
These are the variables that make me real
An infinite self that cannot be concealed
Just a thought
And it would be so different if I could bend the rules. If I could decipher the limits that steer me away. If I could examine the variables that shape those boundaries. There would be no point left for this sadness. The sun would rise and it would fall the way that it was meant to. I’d be standing there with my eyes wide open. I’d be taking in every moment of my own experience. But I’m afraid that I cannot change these facts.. and I’m terrified that I cannot undo what has been done. I’m trying so hard, and I know that it’s too much. I’m fading so fast, and I know that it’s not enough.
Maybe.. somehow things will all work out.
All I have left is my faith at this point anyway..