Tell Us How You Really Feel...
Sometimes lies are necessary. White lies, like white magic.
Dinner was delicious.
Everything is going to be alright.
The worst is behind us.
They're in a better place now.
I love you.
The person we all lie to the most is ourselves. On a Thursday morning in the fall, a woman walked down the isle of a small church in Connecticut. Old women cried and children squirmed in the pews and the minister had to pause the wedding rites as a motorcycle drove rudely by. He asked the couple if they would like to read their vows, and the woman said yes, which was surprising to everyone because she was not the type to write something sentimental. She did not disappoint.
"I don't really want to marry you. I'm thirty-three years old, and I know you won't ever cheat on me because I'm probably the best you can do, so I'm settling, but I know it's wrong, so nevermind."
"So nevermind?" It wasn't exactly the most eloquent way to put it, but she didn't wait around for a critique. After she walked out, the best man leaned over to the groom. "Well, thank God for that."
This was to be expected, ever since two months ago, when the hallucinations started. Psychiatrists everywhere began hearing the same claims.
"My mirror talked to me."
"You're talking to yourself? That's normal."
"No, just my mirror."
"What did the mirror say?"
"The truth."
Bloodshed was an inconveniant side-effect of self-awareness. Some people are much more angry then they let on. Once the news spread, some fought against it. Unhappy couples everywhere banished mirrors from their houses, didn't want to hear the truth of their own affairs and petty arguments and years of carefully cultivated passive-aggressive power dynamics. Before long, people used their mirrors more often than Google. Moms recommended it more than the Bible. 'Ask yourself' took on a whole new meaning. Unable to hide behind flimsy excuses and half-assed rhetoric, middle-aged men admitted long-surpressed sexuality, young women confronted cheating lovers, teenagers told their parents how utterly frustrating the slim prospects of their lives were, and politicians found and shed religion like summer coats. Old marriages fell apart, new ones sprung like leaks. Small chat became pointless. The most commonly heard mirror-talk was you don't really give a damn how your neighbor feels today. It didn't feel so bad knowing everyone else felt the same way. Like a wild-fire, the chaos raged for years, then settled into a slow calm.
Lovers lie intwined in sheets, whispering to eachother.
"Are you sure?" One would say, and they could feel their hearts beat against heaving chests.
"Yes." And it was so.
On a small island in the Indian Ocean, two sisters lie on a beach staring at the sky. The waves inched closer but even they didn't dare touch the girls' delicate feet. They only paid homage then bowed away slowly.
"Are you sure this is the best use of your time?" Said one sister to the other. "They are probably all going to start a massacre any moment."
"They already do that that." It was a fair point, a rare moment of wisdom from the youngest child of the family. "He said he wanted me to try something new. A fresh set of eyes and all that." She was playing with the stars, here a nova, there a nova, billions of miles away and all set to confuse the future. "Besides, if I mess up this one, we can just go to the next one." She picked a star at random, and raised her sister's wrist to point it out. "Like that one. It could do with a little life and color."
The elder stretched out her long limbs and turned on her side.
"It was an accident, you know. The lie seemed like a good idea. I didn't know they'd use it on themselves."
Her younger sister nodded. "Yeah, I know. They can keep the lie. But no more self-medication."
"Fair enough."
Chit-chat
"Honey, you are keeping me alive," the elderly husband says.
"Quit complaining. The alternative is not that great."
"Do you think I'm losing my memory?" he asks.
"Well, you can always make new ones."
"Why don't you forget stuff, Edna?" he asks.
Her name isn't Edna.
"I don't know, Roger." His name isn't Roger.