Words
Sometimes they fail you.
Sometimes they overpower you.
Sometimes you want to drown in them,
Gently roll them in your mouth before you use them.
Sometimes they break you,
Take away tiny pieces of you.
But the most beautiful feeling is -
When you run into someone and they absolutely and completely evade you. :)
Ritika.Jolly
Transience
Everything is temporary,
The moon fades,
The sun sets,
Even stars burn out and die.
One day your soul will be free of this earthly skin,
If you were great you may have a road to your name,
Or stories of your fame.
But stories will be just stories,
People don’t even read books anymore.
Then how do we look for such permanence,
In this state of permanent transience?
Ritika Jolly
Graveyard
So much time has passed
I’m not longer shiny, sparkly and new
Grown up, some may even call old
Finally wise enough to hold my own
Many dreams have been realised and even more have been snuffed
Leaving behind traces in empty whisky cups
So many people have left
Moments have left me bereft
Old enough to buy my own expensive perfume
I smell like I bathe in flowers and the blue sea
But really, there’s just a graveyard inside of me
Ritika.Jolly
Dark
Some days are just dark
When there’s no fire left,
Not even a tiny spark
When all your dreams have died in this gloom
And there’s no sign of light
Because even the stars have left for another’s sky
That’s when I’d remind you -
You are your own sun and your own moon
And if you ripped open your chest
You’d realise that you have a whole universe inside of you!
Ritika.Jolly
Notes to my 13 year old self
You will live in places beyond the walls of this school
There will be boys you will kiss
And you will marry the one you love kissing the most
You will fall many times
And stand up again and again
You will be proud of yourself
What you achieved or didn’t will not matter anymore
The fact you were popular or not won’t either
You will make new friends
You will never forget the old
You will loose people you love
And the universe will give you more to love instead
You will break your heart more than once
You will heal
You will become so strong
That you will be your own knight in shining armour
The baby fat will go
There will be places you will see that you only read of
And when you go there you will never want to leave
But you will have to
Because that’s life
Nothing ever remains the same
And that’s what I what I want to tell my 13 yr old self the most
Honey, this too shall pass
Ritika.Jolly
That kind of love
Don’t worry, she whispered to me
As she left me broken, fallen to the floor on my grazed knees
Look for me where the sun sets
Search for me in your favourite song
Feel me in your highest highs and your lowest lows
Because a love like ours will never dissolve
No matter how much we try to burn it out
It will pour out from places where you hurt most
And like all iridescent things - it will glow
Ritika.Jolly