"Write the book", she said (the character in my head)

"I've been waiting for ages to be on the pages while you waste away in bed"

But I don't even know your name

I can see you, and you haunt me

You stand on the porch of that awful home

Dirty, afraid, and alone

Willing to come away with me

Still I leave you for dead

Let's talk about the things we don't say

The alchemy of you + me

Tomorrow adds another day

On the abacus of he and she

And bears the question

When did us stop being we?

I can share all of my secrets

Use my pain to stitch the words together

So that you may know me

But there is no me

No picture, no name

I hide behind anonymity

I can't break free

You long to see the ocean

I long to be the sea

You merely want to visit

My soul aches to drift free

You are the waves on the surface

I am the blue so deep

Though ships passing in the night

Still in the swell we meet

Then I sink

sink

s

i

n

k

She is wild and imperfect, with a lions heart

and eyes that capture secrets

She draws you in right from the start

You can't calm the tide inside her

or tame her broken ways

She's an unsafe bet

which if you make

it's with your soul you'll pay.

You're a poem never finished

The promise I should have made

A well played contradiction

A haunting memory

You're the place I long to be

That's always out of reach

Everything I always wanted

A truth I couldn't keep

Lips lick liquor

Whisper quicker

Lips lie while you lay

Loving laughing time is passing

No way out so you must stay

Capture and enrapture

Trapped past everlasting

Lips lie while you lay

If you find you cannot speak

When the words just will not come

Stare down doubt reflected in the mirror

Choose who you will and won't become

Your thoughts create your feelings

Your feelings become your truth

The mirror is a pretty pond

But self worth will be your roof

Build the house of your soul strong

To keep safe amid the storm

But when others knock, let them in

For they will make your house a home