Crazy Poet Gypsy Soul
I was young, taking notes
Picking up tips, checking out pros
Playing guitar tracking down hearts
To love and break out on the road
Staying stoned and outta money but
always full of a steady buzz of
Drugs, sex, and rock and roll
Now I'm old still the same
Most folks I use to know
have grown up moved on
But I was made for
Drugs, Sex, and Rock n Roll
I'm a crazy Poet, Gypsy, Soul
Drugs, Sex, and Rock n Roll
I'm a crazy Poet, Gypsy, Soul
When I show, you know I'm
always perfect and loving, you get
the best parts of this broken
beating carved up meat on a hook
This bloody affair isn't fair
But there's always a way to
rearrange broken things till they
resemble some semblance
of youths reckless rage, turn the page
time machine back to days
When I was made for
Drugs, Sex, and Rock n Roll
I'm a crazy Poet, Gypsy, Soul
Drugs, Sex, and Rock n Roll
I'm a crazy Poet, Gypsy, Soul
Wouldn't trade my fender
for all the gold or sell my soul
Still go on benders, a sinner
I repent, rinse repeat baptize me
in that whiskey southern muddy river
Drugs, Sex, and Rock n Roll
I'm a crazy Poet, Gypsy, Soul
Drugs, Sex, and Rock n Roll
I'm a crazy Poet, Gypsy, Soul
Drugs, Sex, Rock n Roll
Crazy, Poet, Gypsy Soul
Broken Family
It didn’t have to be you.
Moments in life can make us grow or tear us apart.
But you knew that from the start.
We are blood.
We grew up in the same house.
Our parents choices didn’t have to become ours.
But you knew that from the start.
Blame our parents and blame our past but you are the one repeating family history.
Bringing back old family trickery when you know that you shouldn’t be.
What life are living?
I’m worried for you and my niece.
And it kills me.
Because I know it isn’t a happy ending.
She choosed to be a cactus
in a world full of beautiful flowers.
Perhaps because a dandelion will be picked up
by someone to make wishes in hope to fulfill their desires. Perhaps because a rose will be picked up
by someone just for her beauty.
And it is certainly true that a cactus will not be picked up by someone, unless that someone is willing to hurt themself.
twentytries
Spaces between
If I spark the flame
Will you blow on it?
Words are not the same,
When you don't breathe
The spaces between
And give syllables meaning.
If I capture something
Of a deeper truth,
Until you speak my words
Are they idle ravings?
Don't press fingers to your lips
And keep us guessing.
If my words refuse,
Would you take the refrain
And echo it by choice?
Emptiness is pain;
Colour me blue
I yearn to hear your voice.
A Black Person Dialogue.
"Hi, I was just looking out my window and I couldn't help but to notice a Yorkshire Terrier in the street outside my house. I believe that the same dog was chased by the local kids back here. Is he your dog?"
"Yea, he my dog."
"Oh, great. I'm glad he's safe, then. He was just so small and skiddish, I didn't want him to get hurt. You know how the people speed down here."
"Why you talkin' like dat?"
"Like what?"
"Like that."
"It's English."
"I know what the hell it is. Why you speakin' it like that?"
"I'm a native speaker."
"Don't tell me what the fuck I already know. You sound white."
"I didn't realize that colors have sounds."
"I mean like white people, lil' gurl."
"So are you trying to say that my voice sounds akin to a white woman's usual dialect?"
"Stop gettin' smart with me, bitch."
"So now I'm an increasingly intelligent female dog? I feel as if I should see that as a compliment."
"..."
"Have a great day, ma'am."
Dedication
In a used bookstore
on the Oregon coast,
I found, in a box of
foreign language books,
an East German government directory
from 1974. I leafed through it,
testing out my high school
German, and then as my girlfriend
came around the corner, I showed
it to her and we laughed over the
randomness of secondhand
bookshops. Then I flipped a page,
and saw a black and white photograph
of a man who looked, not just like me,
but exactly like me, only some years
in my future, which was his past.
He had the same long lashed-eyes, the
same thin lips, the same facial structure.
He was me, in twenty years, still
fadedly handsome, in the square
wire-rimmed glasses of the time,
as though I had dressed up in
costume as a minor government
functionary and had my picture taken.
My girlfriend's laughter stopped
abruptly and she looked up at me, pale.
She was genuinely frightened, so I
laughed again, but I was unsettled as well.
I bought the book and we went back
to the hotel. She took a nap, and I opened
it back up, to his page. My rusty German
told me he was a deputy assistant secretary
in the Economic Ministry. He was married to
Hilde, he had three children. It was not merely
a likeness, it was uncanny how closely we
resembled one another. It was not so
difficult to imagine myself as a
dedicated socialist bureaucrat,
even without the man's picture before me.
I stayed up late that night, setting
my drivers license beside his square portrait,
adding years to myself, matching us up
perfectly. He is an old man now, I told myself,
he is much changed. At home, I tried to
find out anything I could about him, but
the biographical details of mid-level
East German appartchiks are not easily
found. Eventually, though, I came across
a database that listed Ministry personnel of the time
and found that he had died
on the day I was born, still in his post. My girlfriend,
skittish about spiritual matters,
demanded I throw the book out, but I couldn't.
I memorized his entry in the directory,
I became obsessed with him, I even
planned a trip to Berlin to see his grave.
My girlfriend left me, in no small part
because of him. I decided that he was like me,
a good man-in-progress beset by doubt,
believing in his system, in the people around him,
blindsided by upheaval. I forced him into
the contours of my life, willed us to be similar.
Eventually, it evolved into coincidence,
then something I rarely thought about, but a few weeks ago
my former girlfriend called and asked how
he and I were doing, and I laughed and said
I'm fine. I heard the slight tremor in her laugh,
and the quickness of her ringing off.