Well it's 12:29 hopefully I get to be the first one, to wish you a happy birthday to party central in heaven. My heart aches and it still hard to admit that you are gone. I still have your number saved in my phone wishing that one day I'd receive a call and hear your voice behind it saying"Hey Jamaica ". You were one of my favorite people on this earth. I am still angry you aren't here but I'm happy you aren't suffering. Thank you for all the blessings you gave to me in my life. There are days where I feel lost without you. Please protect me the rest of my days. Thank you for my little cousins/ siblings. Thank you for showing me an unbroken and unconditional love. I will see you again one day. Until then I will keep my locs long and my Cadillac running. I love you forever and I know you love me more because you loved me first

The giver a name with so many meanings behind it . So let's dissect this name with the purest description. A giver is someone who puts everyone and everything before themselves. A giver is someone who never backs down from a challenge. Well how does that make sense well someone who never backs down they give there all. Now do you see clearly who you are. If you are reading then you are probably a giver who might feel like giving up. But baby love this is only the 2 quarter. Drink that self love and get back up. Now that your mind is wondering on how you be a giver you do it in your daily life. But as a giver myself let me give you a piece of advice. You are ok and you will make it I will guide you to success if you hear my words.

To say that I adore you is an understatement. You the fire in my heart that burns with no form of extinguisher in sight. I heard you calling out for me and here I am. Our souls can connect now. Our love can grow, our love will overtake this world and change it for the better. Hold my hand baby and I promise I got you. Enjoy my love baby and I promise you won’t need anyone else’s. Crave my existence baby and I promise you you won’t want to be anywhere but with me. Desire my attention baby and I promise you neglect will never come to you. You are mine and I am yours your are my lock and I am your key to unleashing a side of each other we never knew love could bring out. But how deep are you willing to fall in love with me will it have any end?

Purple meaning extravagant, wise , noble, dignity, peace and pride. Now I see why you love the color so much. I remember taking an art class back in college and we had to mix the paint and paint a color wheel to get all different hues of purple. But I would have to be careful because to much of one color can offset the whole thing. A little bit of blue here and a splash of red there gives you a dark purple which is a part of you I will call that the hurts. But if you add a little white to it it’s brings out a lighter and brighter purple. Although the colors that’s are mixed to get purple have their own background purple is a little more special. So going back to you I’ll explain how. Your friends where the little bit of white you needed to become the shade of purple that everyone can embrace. And then you added me and you became a light purple like Cotten candy on a summer day. You became a color that only I can see. But going back to the art class the professor always taught that any spec of that dark purple and the whole balance will be off set. But if you keep adding light the color with show more immensely. So now Danni you are at that point where you are glowing I can see alll of you every thing that was put into you to make you as bright as you are today and I plan to keep adding to where your shine will blind those who try to block you out.

As you read the title you think why didn’t I say it was the state of mind. But I’m different so my mind state is opposite from the man who stands next to me. Mine is full of dreams and ambitions that I haven’t fulfilled yet. Mountains that I haven’t climbed yet. Peace that I haven’t made yet with the things that have hurt me in the past. Love that I haven’t thought about giving yet. Desires that I have dived into yet. Lust that I haven’t experienced yet. The list is endless. But the mind state of me conflicts with the world so I’m trapped wings of the mind clipped and cut short hindering me to fly . Like that pitbull chained to the pole in the back yard I’m on a short leash you can only hear my bark if you are near by. as I go through this world people only see my good works if they are close by. But once I break free I’m attacking with a vengeance. Like a woman on the first day of her cycle. Heavy flowing hard, to stop I won’t be contained.

Right now you are nothing but a figment of my imagination waiting like a dream to come true to be in my arms looking in my eyes as I look back into yours. Let me tell you this world is cold you try to find a way to survive until you grow old. Elderly weary of things this life will put you through but trust me baby girl you are a gem a Queen you have something in you no one else has. They have something similar but yours was made just for you. I’m talking about your heart it may just be a beat for now waiting to be heard on that ultra sound but it’s there. For now you dance in heaven watching over me and your mother holding Gods right hand. Already you protect me from harm and danger so one day we can meet. I know you are ready to be here by my side but don’t rush it God will send you when it is time. When you come let no man tell you you can’t be great dont let any man tell you it’s ever to late to be more that this world wants you to be. Just know that I want you to see everything you can see and everything you will be. But right now I’m just me your protector your guide, your friend until we meet keep me safe. I look forward to meeting you in time to come if it doesn’t happen when I want whisper in Gods ear that I want his will to be done

A strong foundation is the key to success. Our foundation was built on our friendship. That was the first step in to our forever. Now that we are building more and more together each day let fill our Hearts with love so we can look back 70 + years from now and say that we made it. I tell you watching you flourish has been the most incredible thing to watch. You have turned into the most beautiful butterfly. Step 2 from the foundation is built like the walls in a house but that is our faith and strength. We need both to make it faith in each other and strength in our prayers. Step three from the walls is the roof which will be out protection from all harm and things negative that try to stop our paths from progressing.

Step 4 the last step are the decorations in the house to give it that homey feel. But in our case it will emulate laughter, gentleness, all of the feelings that we have. the little things that some don’t deem worthy of remembering. Although they may seem small without them we won’t be free. We would have built everything but forget to add the finishing touches . Now that we have built our love house, let’s enter and live free and let no one in that’s doesn’t see our vision

There are things I must do to save you. There are places I need to be to treat you. First I have to pull my heart out. Pull it out if situations that don't make me feel like catching the prize rainbow trout. I give my all and still end up hurt I get it my heart is different bigger than most but always treated like dirt. I give my all damnit but that's never enough. It aches it cries to just be loved the way it gives love. Not just intimacy but friendship as well. I have to pull my heart out before it's to late. Up until now I know how to care for you but it's going to hurt even more for now. Isolate you no that can't be right. I have to give you medicine I have to give you my own love before I can make you show someone else love. I have to stop making you bite off more than you can chew. I have to defend you with sword and shield. I have to protect you with everything in this world like they do a quarterback in centerfield. No more lies just you and me we can make it and be the happiest we can be

You are my ride or die my heaven on this earth. My Queen sent just for me. Let me be your knight in shining armor. Let your hair down and I promise you will never forget it. Let me uplift you always and you will never fail. Let me pray for you daily and you will be untouchable. Let me cater to you and you will always glow. Let me be everything you need my Queen. As I stand behind you let all know that you are heavily guarded with the right tools. As I wrap these arms around you and hold you just sink into my love and let us become one.

Don't hurt yourself today I need you

Love yourself more beside you I am too

Don't hurt yourself today I need you

Give to yourself it will always be true

Don't hurt yourself today I need you

Cherish yourself because I'm right here

Don't hurt yourself today I need you

Embrace yourself I will always be your listening ear

Don't hurt yourself today I need you

Challenge yourself because only you can do it

Don't hurt yourself today I need you

Never give up because you are hurt

For anyone going through this life hurting come talk to me I'm available to listen.