He peered out the window on a cold winters night, the music blaring, love songs in the background and mixed drinks in hand. I sit on the couch and notice from the harbor lights that snow is coming down in the most delicate way. He smiled at me in delight and yelled over, hey lets go outside in the snow! We grab our jackets. Him in a black coat and me in my white jacket with my hood laying perfectly over my forehead. He takes my hand and runs outside like a young boy not being able to wait to show his prize. He stops in his tracks, turns to me and stares like a million stars are in my eyes. He gently grabs my face with both his hands and kisses me passionately while the snowflakes fall on my eyelashes. This was us talking, experiencing and loving one another. Only you and me. I'll never forget.

Black velvet sheets, lamps covered with red sheer scarves. The smell of musk fills the air. A canopy bed, the touch of finger tips, the taste of champagne and soft passionate kisses. Candle lights in the corner nook, a stare without words your face as I look. Pressing up against each other holding each other tight. We are lost in the dark night.The music never ends. Please play that record again!

No matter how hard I try, no matter how hard I go the extra limit my heart gets stomped, crushed and thrown to the curb. Sitting in the cold no one to love me, feeling lonely, tears well up in my eyes I could barely see. Where did I go wrong? Am I not pretty enough? Am I not the person you thought I'd be? Or maybe it was just a fling. Someone you thought you could have in your life until you were confident to move on to another. Why can't it be that I'm special? That I don't get beaten. By words or by hands this I will never understand. I question all the time why me? Maybe this time as I close the door, I'll give you one more look and leave. My heart pounding in my chest, tears stream down my eyes, my lips whisper this to you, I say...Goodbye...

My heart was filled with an overwhelming flow. Blood drawn to the skin warm and subtle. I needed this in my life. I needed you. How quickly does time change it all. No more hugs, no more kisses no more joys of tears it's almost like I'm not here. The look in your eyes spoke to me once with joy telling me I am an old soul and that there was something in me you admired so. Now when you see me you look away not even mentioning how was my day. I am not the one you said as the tears flowed down my face, like the ocean and the waves, my love has been washed away. No more do I feel whole, I'm lost, you were here one minute and next your gone. God give me strength I ask what did I do wrong. To have the love washed away like the waves coming in I was drawn.

Stars at night twinkle ever so bright. Each one reminds me of a memory where I began my life. Some stars are in distance so far to see but some are up close almost in front of me. The beams of light from the tiniest stars remind me of my past its long ago why has it gone so fast? Childhood memories, birthday cakes, family members and even teen dates. I look at the closer stars much brighter and clear, but I question myself the answers for my future is not here. I stare at all trying to recall which memory was the best, the answer is not there it is right here, as I point to my chest. I am the star, I am my light I am my future the star so bright.