13 Ways of Looking at Water
Ⅰ
Girl, maybe eight is old enough to use a knife
to cut carrots after school, Wednesday night.
Pours grease into the pan’s porous brow, slips
cuts finger and reaches for the tap.
Ⅱ
Curtains of mist
echo across deserts like a monsoon or a moment
caught by the window droplets on the recluse’s web.
Ⅲ
Catch man home from work in a yellow taxi cab,
rivers run on the windshield, blurs all the street lights together.
Makes the city smell alive.
Ⅳ
Beads form pearl necklaces on pretty glimpses
of exposed décolletage, wears steam shawl over shoulder blades.
Alphabet runs down the drain.
Ⅴ
Downey blue coats the metacarpal to baby’s scar
oiled alkaline, water reaches to kiss.
Ⅵ
Kettle screams interrupts the metaphor,
feel like home.
Ⅶ
Steam brushes woman’s nose,
runs slow like cough syrup.
Porcelain bites skin, leaves burn shaped like a dove
behind on the left forearm.
Ⅷ
If it was a matter of need,
all I wanted was snow tonight.
Ⅸ
Farmer wakes early,
looks to the cornfields of September.
Rains like April.
Ⅹ
Five year old boy hisses, orange cup clatters on the ground
Puddles on the floor.
ⅩⅠ
Six tablespoons in the lungs.
ⅩⅡ
Cracked lips, Dr. said swabs with glycerin.
(funny humans) final symptom: euphoria, as the last droplets leaves the system.
Body speaks softly,
I’m dying.
ⅩⅢ
tap squeaks, she reaches out,
watches water wash away the red.
Prose, one month in – a thank you note
My wife works in admissions, and almost exactly a month ago, she came home from working a grad fair with a flyer for a low-res creative writing MFA program. I laughed, for several reasons.
The idea is incredibly impractical because money time children life. I also don’t need it; I’ve got my job, and I’m fortunate enough that it’s not going anywhere. Adjuncting someday could be fun, but financially speaking, I’d be better off doing quite literally anything else. An MFA is a lazy “maybe someday” daydream for me very similar to a monthlong European vacation. Hypothetically, if I bent my will and wallet toward it I could eventually make it happen, but am I? really?
Mostly though, I laughed because as I told my wife, “It’s been two years since I’ve written literally anything.”
Those anythings were one-act plays that I sent around to a few competitions in the hopes of seeing one staged. (One finalist status and a lot of radio silence.) Three years before that was the personal essay I actually worked on for real and sent around to a few literary magazines whose niche it seemed to fit. (It didn’t.) And before that was sixteen chapters of a novel I abandoned. Total readership: around 7 for the essay (people who I named in it and wanted an OK from, but who did say they liked it), X anonymous judges for the plays, and 1 for the novel (wife, though I don’t think I ever showed her anything past chapter 10).
That all did feel a little discouraging, but mostly, I hadn’t written anything in two years because I couldn’t think of a damn thing to say. So I laughed, but even while I scoffed at myself, I realized I missed having something to say.
The well still felt very dry, so I turned to the ol’ algorithmic witching rod to hunt for a contest that could give me a topic. Google brought back a bunch of uninteresting stuff, including a contest about the end of the world, and I dropped the matter until I decided that I was going to do this, I was going to write something. So I created a Prose account and wrote about toast.
And then somebody Liked it. And somebody else. And eventually 15 people liked “Little Things,” which means that with the work of a couple hours, I had gotten roughly double the readership I had in the preceding decade.
There’s that bromide about “if you reach one person” that people trot out to cheer up artists who fail to find an audience, and usually, I think the cliché just pisses said artist off more. I have to say, though, Jesus did 15 feel nice.
I’ve been trying to give as much back to Prose people as I’m receiving, reading liking and commenting both on random new posts and posts of people who do the same with my stuff. I’ve probably missed some people. And I’m going to have to slow down my Prose pace some, both writing and reading, because I have this bad habit of feeling most creative when I have a stack of dishes or grading that I’m supposed to be dealing with. But I wanted to write a post to express my appreciation.
I will now (and for the only time, I promise) obnoxiously tag the people who have liked something I’ve posted. Thank you. The reads and likes and comments and reposts and follows mean a lot. Keep on doing your respective things.
Persephone
The mortals call our curse the great reward.
A life sans end, sans age — just nectar sweet,
Ambrosia fresh. But we on high are barred
From else. I craved uneven metric feet.
My mother pulled the grain up from the earth.
The mortals worshipped her with feasts and prayers
And Love! Real love, fierce hard love born from birth
And hardship, illness, joy among the snares
Of menial life… I called; he took, my blood
Divine ascream for Hades’ shadowed mares,
For dragging down, for fruited seed, for Love.
My mother beat her breast and tore her hair
Because I left the world of heat and breath:
Small price to pay for one caress of death.
The Devil’s Greatest Fear
The devil is scared of honey that comes right from the hive
The devil is scared of apples plucked right off the tree
The devil is scared of fresh flowers blooming in spring
The devil is scared of newborns taking their first breath
Before the world corrupts them all
The devil's greatest fear...
Is all that is pure