To My King,

You say that you still feel for me, you've always longed for me, Why? For when I'm here you mistreat me, you degrade me, you make me feel as if I'm nothing. My peace, my safety, my security, my sanity all things you used to be. What happened? Where did your love go? Has marriage changed you?

Friends,family and onlookers call me lucky that I've found someone like you. Only if they knew how much alters behind closed doors. Privacy is now something I dread, any and everything public is my safe haven. Your heart? Your queen? Your everything?... Have you ever thought about pursuing an acting career? You play your part very well,no script needed, you captivate and convince your audience everytime. Talented? That you are, however I know the true evil concealed.

Can I continue living this lie? Am I leaving you? Exposing the real you? I remember when I trusted in you, a long time ago it feels. Although it has only been a matter of months, one day changed my life forever. Stood there, confident in your love for me I proclaimed "I do", now I wish that I didn't. But guess what!? No more, this time you sit up high, you will be alone. Rule supreme on your throne, rule with no weaknesses. Actually, I bought that throne, you can rule in strong stature. Sorry, not sorry.

I wish the best to you in all you do, but more so the best for myself. So Your Magesty, long may you reign.

Signed,

Your Royal Lesson

He's sorry. He didn't mean what he said. This was my fault. He loves me. 

With blackened eyes, bruised cheeks, busted lip and an aching heart, I defend him still. He has never meant to hurt me, it's just I provoke him so much. I shouldn't question or challenge anything he says. I should've known that the lemonade was too sweet tonight. He knows what's best for me, as he always has, I've got to be more obedient. 

  My life is perfect, three beautiful and gifted children,a nice home,nice cars,a loving husband. Everything I could ever ask for, was given to me by him. He has to love me a lot right? Our eldest son is in college, our daughter is a star soccer player at her elementary school and his youngest son has just started preschool.

    I know what you're thinking, but he had only cheated because he said I had put on a few pounds and was no longer attractive. I had been heartbroken when I found out but quickly forgave him because he was right,I had been letting myself go.I worked out 3-4 hours everyday for two months,so that he would look at me the way he used to.Those days skipping meals really paid off,he was attracted to me again.

    I encourage the kids to take everything my husband says as virtue because he is always right and only wants what's best for our family.That's how we live,fulfilling every request, no questions asked. Total control,authority and reign,the king of his castle. The exact way he told me it should be.

Roses are red,

Hide and seek is what he played,

Running through the house, she screams his name,

Leo! No response.

All of this had to be a game.

Leo! No response.

Red paints the stairs,

Her heart sinks, increasing her flow of tears.

She was only gone for an hour.

Cautious steps upwards

Body shaking,

Shoes red,

Mouth sour

The trail ended here, with the door cracked.

Red is the rose on his bed.

Leo! No response

Leg sticking out from underneath

Leo! Come out, I've found you.

Hide and seek is what he played,

It's a pity that now he's without a head

13 years of love we shared, destroyed for ten minutes of passion. Was it worth it? Would I take it back? Frankly, both yes and no. The passion filled a place that had been void for years. However, I would'nt take it back.Make no mistake, I love my wife and family but it's not been enough. She's too tired or on her monthly a lot, leaving me wondering where I went wrong. Love has damaged me and I don't know if I'll ever understand it.Hopefully, her brother can be of assistance to me. Confusing I know, but happily so.