From One Proser to Another
There are so many wonderful people I’ve met here at Prose, and although I still haven’t been here long, they have really helped me to grow as both a person and a writer. I’m going to list a few of the Prosers who have had the most impact on me.
@IvyBee You’ve provided me with specific feedback time and time again. As a writer trying to grow, that is truly invaluable, and I appreciate the help so much. I’ve learned a lot from you from just a few conversations, and I treasure all the support you’ve given me. You have also just been an incredibly kind and understanding person.
@Danceinsilence I’ve truly enjoyed the little conversations we’ve had, and I really enjoy reading your work. It has been an inspiration to me. You’ve also been kind and encouraging, and have helped me stay on the path of writing.
@Brandi333 You have been incredibly supportive and encouraging from the very beginning. Being new to Prose and not really knowing what I was doing, that was super helpful starting out. I appreciate the time you’ve taken to continuously read and support my work. It means so much.
I only listed a few Prosers here, but really, anyone who’s ever liked, shared, commented on, and/or read my work, has supported me in some way. All of this encourages me and convinces me to keep writing, that someone out there enjoys what I create. Truly, I appreciate all of you, and the support you’ve provided is so meaningful, more than words can say. Thank you so much.
Conforming to numbness // Black Sheep // Rain drop amongst snowflakes
Strucken with the idea that i'm not who I wanna be
Stuck in the wrong mindset that feels like my life is crashing, like waves crashing on a structure that is foreign to its surrondings. Like a black sheep amongst the others, like a raindrop in a snow storm. I feel isolated for not being on the right setting,temp, atmospehere that is my life. Yet I know deep down inside i'm fine. I dont feel fine. I feel numb to the touch, burning like the burner I left on 10 and my hands slammed down on the heat. I feel the temperature rising, and im loosing feeling more and more.
Like the rain drop i'm falling faster and faster than the rest, I tell you I cannot detest this. I cannot Stress this, the feeling of warmth is what I crave yet everyone around me feels so cold to the touch, arms distance, almost in my grasp. Yet so far away. I'm almost there I know it, I wish I could show it, show up, take up the words I have sown, I wish I was shown what it means to be human, to be man, to be a man with a life plan. The weight of gravity is pulling me down deeper and deeper into my insanity. I crave sanity as if life depended on it. But i'm so isolated in the herd that I have been in. I feel like I can cry out for help, but will it be help? Will it be genuine? Will there be a plan to fix this til the end. End, like the end of good book I dont want it to be over too soon, like life it will be over too soon, we are here and then we are gone. We are here for not so long I just wanna make my mark in this land, like a heavy raindrop i'll hit the snow covered land. I will melt the snow around me, I will Cry louder and louder for the shepard to herd me, i'm tired so tired of not taking my stand. Will I give up? Will I let this story end? Will I melt those around me for the change or conform to the coldness that surronds me in this "winter wonder land". Will I end on this chapter? Or will I go on to the end.
Just.. need to find my plan, my entangled feelings, my end.
Social media
Once it offered warm connections to those so far away.
Distant friends were now a click away for sharing and play.
Share the joys of memes and your children’s daily lives.
But in crept darker things that in the human spirit thrives.
Petty politic posts, spam bot shrieks, nattering narcissists.
Creeping vitriol to sate the bigot, the sexists and elitists.
Skillfully hide ideas from those who might challenge your mind.
Drown insecurities in enough i-moonshine to strike you blind.
Today, go ahead enjoy its cheap thrills but with wary open eye.
Everything has a purpose, and a bad side that may go awry.
Arachnophobia
My heart pounds like a jackhammer,
And sweat beads on the back of my neck,
Slowly trickling down tan skin
My mind reels, spinning with fear,
As tiny hairs, carried on multiple pointed legs, brush against my flesh
The sensation makes my stomach clench,
A sickening feeling taking over
Leering straight at me,
Are a set of black beady eyes,
Appearing almost souless
At any moment,
I feel as if I could be devoured
The mix of negative emotions and bodily reactions
Leaves me faint, like I could collapse instantaneously
I want to scream,
But my throat is hoarse and dry,
Noise refusing to escape
I plead for this to be over
It is one of my deepest fears