If only you knew my struggle

 You'd repossess those hateful glances

The dirt, shame, and debauchry

Perhaps your jealously is misinformed 

You covet my position sans the battle

Want my success without the fight

You keep hating, I will continue to write

you've been staring at that screen so long your eyes have glazed over

plus you're still recovering from that gnarly hangover

you leave at night and don't come back until the morning

i guess i'm missing school today, without any warning

i feel like we've switched roles, i'm the mom and you're the teenager

i'm worrying about you and you're coming down from last night's rager

you keep asking me why i don't want to be around you, you're persistent

yet, getting blackout drunk is the only thing about you that's consistent

the worst part is that i've told you all of these thoughts

given you all the information you needed to connect the dots

so there really is no excuse for you to be acting so goddamn ignorant

stop giving me that dumbfounded look, you know why i've been distant

you're only ever there for me when it's convenient for you

do you really think that's what a mother is supposed to do?

you don't seem to care at all, guess i'm no longer your top priority

that's fine, but what's really funny to me is that you think you have any authority

you don't get one and not the other; you're not my mom, only a mother

you're exploding and i'm ducking for cover

so when i get up and leave, not walking, but running

don't be so surprised, you had it coming

call me up when there's something you need?

there's no such thing as a truly bad deed.

we're always there for you but you're no one's rock.

your actions are as sure as the ticking of the clock.

you need advice? a little love? someone to talk to? we got you.

you don't seem to think about what we've been through.

maybe you don't care? just don't realize?

well, babe, it's time to open your eyes.

i'm done with you, fed up with it,

i don't know how much longer we can put up with your shit.

so go ahead, keep being selfish,

we can't keep up being this selfless.

and when you're all alone, with no one to lean on?

don't come to us, we'll all be far gone.

There was a moment,

An inhale of breath,

That sparkled like dust motes

Made of dreams.

There was a whisper,

A sigh on the dance floor,

That swept through her eyes

Like a mirage.

There was a kiss,

An offering of life,

That met with silence

Like death.

There was a change,

A heart that found truth,

That shone like stars

Made into reality.

There was a silence,

A void in the light,

That gathered within him

Like broken mirrors.

There was a word,

An ending of hope,

That showed what she'd given

Made into regrets.

There was a moment,

A rush of remorse,

That left him abandoned

Like her memories.

Our veins are frosted

And our hearts encased in ice.

The freeze has arrived

And our blood runs cold.

But our roots run deep

Where this frost can't reach.

And intertwined,

We will survive

If you would weather this winter with me.

Mingling with

high class society

the lifestyle of the 

fabulously 

spoiled

and wealthy

poor lives enslaved

to haughty

superficiality 

They're off doing drugs

I've never heard of before

okay but zoomed out

she found death to be

tremendously

boring

sometimes people

just don't feel

the same way

more like this

people talking

side-eyeing each other

outsides and insides

why do I suck at drawing hands?

Shift there

closer together

and to the left

"I had a dream last night that I was a spy/hitman in dark sunglasses

running around D.C. stealing cars."

How do you even draw an elbow?

I need a new pen.

Time is passing,

refill your glass and your conversation

Why do we need a new year to make a resolution?

Dr. Awkward has entered the building.

Leave me Alone.

There are

moments of tension

b/w what is said and what is seen.

understated.

mirrors and blank faces.

I envy statues.

Champagne Travesty.

Cupcake Wine.

I have nothing here.

Has it become so hard

so wrong

for me to keep my nothing?

Do you love easily?

yes and no.

Who the fuck are you?

This might sound a little strange...

you were in my dream

and then I took you out of it with me.

the only way to get better at drawing faces is to draw more of them.

Get me out of here

I have cabin fever

We're sick of casting shadows,

of blocking out the light

Your startup disk is almost full.

I would like to be left alone, from now until forever thank you very much.

redorangebrownblack

your startup disk your startup disk yours startup disk ayour startup startup start restart

razor blade

blue car death

she tried to take a deep breath

even cacti need a little water sometimes

Osmosis, right?

Humans are a lot like cells. Whatever we're surrounded by, we take in or let out to equalize what's in us to what's outside of us.

That's freshman biology.

Borderline psychology, if you ask me.

So it's worth taking a gander at what kind of solution you're floating in.

See if it's actually more of a problem, instead.

Because like cells, we get to choose what we let in.

What we let change us, influence us.

It's called a semi-permeable membrane.

But unlike cells, we don't always recognize what's bad for us before it's too late.

And it's already affected us.

For the worse.

So please, realize that you are a product of your environment.

And it's up to you which factors stay, or are removed.

Remember.

Whether life is a science or not, you can always change the method by which you live it.

Why would anyone hate

when there is so much love in the world

every opportunity granted upon you

gives you the chance to be cruel

or to spread kindness

and change the world

one step at a time

-kindness

Love someone for who they are

not who you want them to be

My problem is

I love the wrong people

For I see the potential they have

to be spectacular

I don't separate their potential

and my fantasy of who they should be

with the nightmare they actually are