I've been having visions of you and I

sitting together until the sunrise

but when I open my eyes

its no suprise

that its just your ghost sitting in your chair

watching me with an unwavering stare

that makes me think

that we are in sync

because we both portray

faces that say we are not ok

There are days I wish you were here to tell me its ok.

And then there are days where I wish you would'nt have lied to me.

And then there are times I wish I would have got out of my childish fanastys,

and looked at you, not just a quick glance but really looked at you.

And I would have seen your tired eyes, and the way your hands shook.

but now I'm here choking, and crying in the tub while your ghost holds me and tells me its ok

and I wish your ghost would go away

because I'm starting to fall apart at the seams

and I can't lie to myself and say its ok

because it just doesn't sound the same

It took everything inside of me to not scream at your funeral

Because I'm angry at all the things I can't change

I miss the days when it was just you and me

when we played pirates by the sea

and when you held me when I scraped my knee

you told me "don't fear your whole life's in the hand of God"

I was young and thought it was odd,

but all I could do was smile and nod

I hugged you with my tiny arms and said "we'll always be together."

you looked at me with your hand on my cheek and whispered "forever."

but you lied to me, didn't you?

a small part of me knew

but I had hoped it wasn't true

you pushed me away in the end

and the space between us is something that won't mend

but I don't think I can ever truly say goodbye

If I do, it's gonna hurt worse since you're not here to hug me when I cry.

keep them with your secrets

scattered in your skin

from the ones who loved you

even through your sins

somewhere in the darkness

is where you'll find your soul

buried underground

is where you belong

these songs we’ll sing

hold them close to you

find a place to hide

It can't be from within

tell me those lies again

no one has to know

they burn a hole inside me

deeper than you thought

I can feel you watching me

every time I break down and cry

I’m on my back asking why

while you look down on me from the sky

and I swear I heard you speak

but your voice keeps playing hide n seek

I told the policeman that I’m drunk

and asked if he’s ever lost, someone

because everyone is moving on

but I’m still stuck on question one

God came and took you from me

He locked the door and threw away the key

he told me “Your time will come that’s a guarantee,

but you have to think about what she needs.”

“Don’t you think it’s pretty?” She asked absentmindedly. She ran her fingers across it, drumming softly.

Roger slipped his shoes on and looked up. “I think it’s lovely my dear,” he says. “But we must be going, we don’t want to be late.”

She pays no mind to his words too transfixed on the weight upon her neck.

Roger comes up behind her embracing her from where she stood on the stool. “If you don’t stop staring at it my love, I’ll have to take it back.”

She slowly turned around to face him, a hint of remorse flashed across her eyes.

“Roger my love, if one thing’s for certain I will never take it off.” and with that, she took a step off the stool she was standing on. Roger shaked his head and placed his hat upon it.

“My love, always one for dramatics.” He sighed as her body swayed slightly. “I’ll see you at the party, and don’t forget to lock the door.” and with that, he was gone.

She hung there smiling in her final moments and the door unlocked.

Listen to my siren song

You no longer have to think about right or wrong

Feel the waves on your legs

Fall to your knees and beg

Follow me to your grave

My song will make you brave

I know that you have got more fight left within you

But I'll break down your barriers to get through

If the sea could sing

It would sing to you

"We'll keep you sheltered my dear but we can't set you free."

I'll make you dance with your demons and television lines

Death is near you better recognize the signs

There's no happy ever after

No silence filled with laughter

only memories

from your life

For a moment we lock eyes

Yours widen in surprise

I'm so glad I got to share this moment with you

I wish you could see yourself drowning from my point of view

round and round we go

as you struggle to stay afloat

In your company, eternally

Here beside you, we'll always be

it'll just be us three

you, me and the sea

It's a foolish and a dangerous endeavor

Its a cut against the grain

It is not wise to go against the weather

Just to get caught out in the rain

And through it all

My song remains

Like teardrops in a hurricane