tell me you love me,

one more time.

love held our hands at 19

years old; fate ran their fingers

through our hair. so when

our memories desire to access

the past, this is what my heart

will bleed.

tell me i was once your

everything.

we chewed our fate like gum,

passed it between our tongues;

so no, it’s not our fault it lost

the flavor of desiring. and parts

of you will stay with me forever,

tucked away until i need reminding.

tell me this was real

to you too.

if the words meant to be liked us

enough, they would’ve told us what

needed changing, so our forever

wasn’t temporary. but instead, never

ripped apart our dreams and beings

so carelessly.

before you go,

tell me something worth remembering.

before you go,

hand me a

needle,

pass me

some thread.

maybe then

i can stitch

up the hole

you're going

to be

leaving

in my

heart.

I know there’s little time –

100 years more

would be

too little,

but,

what we have

is quite a bit less;

so much more life

in memory

than awaiting.

I’m not complaining.

I am ever thankful

for every day

we have shared -

even the

shoot me please days

for they serve

to highlight

how strong,

how resilient,

how beautiful

is the love

we kindled –

against

quite a few odds –

with a shy smile

that sparked

an indelible connection,

so very long ago.

And here we are…

still.

A few more moments

with our hearts

our minds

our souls

in sync.

Before you go,

please,

hold my hand.

I won’t let go.

I love you, so.

before you go

you should know that

we were the closest thing to soulmates

and the furthest thing from lovers

I had ever seen.

You cut at my edges

until I matched the silhouette

in your mind

and I am still picking up the pieces of myself you cast aside.

Before you go,

hold me close again.

Before you go,

make me feel like we’re a whole for a moment more.

Before you go,

help me understand how we fell out of love.

Before you go,

give us a chance.

Before you go,

think twice about it.

Before you go,

kiss my forehead as you did before...

As you did before our love ran dry like bones,

As you did before our words to each other were sweet.

As you did before...

when you & I were in love - which feels like years ago.

Before you go,

think of me.

Of us.

Before you go,

give a chance

at loving me again.

Before you go,

sing the lullaby of love to me.

5.8.2020

Is there something before you go,

That I would like for you to know,

Take you on a trip and I could show,

You the way you make my body glow.

I could sit with you and watch the river flow.

I could sit in a field with you and watch the daisies grow,

Together we could watch the rhythm of the rain and how slow,

It falls on my face and combines with my tears as they go.

Never giving you a chance to say no.

I want to say I love you before you go.

Before you go,

You need to know,

You broke my heart, yes.

And I will build it back piece by piece,

From the rubble and the ash.

And I'll come back stronger.

Leave the light on and tell me that you love me.

Make me believe what you say is true.

Look at me longingly, with those eyes of crystal blue.

For a moment, just let me pretend it's real.

Then go on your way, slip down my hall. With a smile on your face, though we both know you won't call.

And I'll be ok, because before you left, you gave me one moment I'll never regret.

Before you go, let me say I'm sorry, please...

I wanted to hold you one more time before twilight's gleam

We could have walked the shiny shore and licked ice cream

The words will forever haunt me, the ones I didn't say

Now they'll just be blown away by an indifferent wind

I see the pain on a face death has stricken and dimmed

I can only watch as time fades, heart fled to another day

Before you go let me first state that I love you.

I’ve loved you with not just my heart, but my soul.

That I’ve told everyone I know how much I love you.

But I cannot be with you mother...

We cannot share the same space....

We will not be together on this earth.

I’am not your child, but I have always been a spiritual friend.

You were meant to only birth me.

Because of you I am here.

Thankyou grand spirit and bless your soul.

We will meet again.

Perhapes on another plane of existence.

And maybe next time I will birth you...