Oh, your sweet disposition

And my wide-eyed gaze

We’re singing in the car, getting lost upstate

Autumn leaves falling down like pieces into place

And I can picture it after all these days

Oh, what a shame

What a rainy ending given to a perfect day

Well maybe it’s me and my blind optimism to blame

Maybe it’s you and your sick need to give love then take it away

People like you always want back the love they gave away

And people like me wanna believe you when you say you’ve changed

We can’t make

Any promises now, can we, babe?

I’ve been the archer

I’ve been the prey

Who could ever leave me, darling? But who could stay?

Even on my worst day, did I deserve, babe

All the hell you gave me?

’Cause I loved you, I swear I loved you

’Til my dying dayday

But what would you do if I

Break free and leave us in ruins

Took this dagger in me and removed it

Gain the weight of you then lose it

Believe me, I could do it

This ain't Hollywood, this is a small town

I was a dreamer before you went and let me down

Now it's too late for you and your white horse

To come around

You come away with a great little story

of a mess of a dreamer with the nerve to adore you.

Every single time you knock at my door, I must let you in.

Listen to your apologies, soak in your depravities,

and my heart is stitched back together.

By now, every time you break me,

my happy ending shatters before me,

and I need to remind myself, like a mantra to hold it together,

'I'm not a princess, this isn't a fairtytale',

and hearts in this normal life are bound to break.

Every day is a new obstacle in a treacherous path to keep your love,

flickering and alive, just a little bit longer.

You're never impressed by me acing your tests, and I know,

you're not someone I can study, since your moodswings are hard to predict.

But still, I try.

And my mind takes me back to where it all started,

seeing flashbacks reflected on the window near my bed.

Autumn leaves falling down like pieces into place,

and I can picture it after all these days.

The reckless laguhter coming from downstairs,

our lazy Sundays and forgotten blue Mondays.

I remember your sly smirk when I say a joke you don't find funny,

your voice out of tune when you're singing in the shower,

the misfit you called yourself when you met my parents,

and the slow-burning candles the night we danced for the first time.

I simply cannot delete those moments from my mind.

But there come your demons again,

the ex-lovers dressed in faux and leather,

the same enchanting old rancor,

and you're bound to blow me over.

An empire you don't wish to conquer.

When the dust settles and I'm alone at that goddamned park,

I realize people like you always want back the love they gave away

and people like me want to believe you when you say you've changed.

But forgiving over and over does more damage than it does good,

for I can see my heart slowly chafing on your hand.

But then we're back, you apologize and I simply forgive,

and I see you at night, wonder when you sleep,

are you ever dreaming of me?

Of all the ways you can build my world just to tear it apart,

blaming me for the ways you screwed up in the past?

But maybe, maybe I ought to give you the benefit of the doubt,

and say that your heart is just a bit more stubborn to be loved than most.

Maybe all of the others weren't wise enough to stay.

So you yell and I break, I jump from the train, I ride off alone,

back to my house that without you isn't a home.

And perhaps all our battleships will sink beneath the waves.

Maybe you had to kill me to make yourself feel something,

never knowing it killed you just the same.

But I'll never wish I stayed because I'll never leave.

I always come back.

So, that's the way it goes,

you get pebbles in exchange of gold sometimes.

And no one in this story would dare to believe

a coward like me would venture to seek love in someone else's arms.

Not even I think of myself as capable.

But what would you do if I break free and leave us in ruins?

If I gain the weight of you just to lose it, time and time again?

You might get off the thrill of this crooked thing you call love,

but for me, it could never begin to amount to enough.

And I want to run, but I'll just give in once more.

***

THIS CHALLENGE WAS AMAZING TF.

thats it for now

-mel

Third floor on the West Side, me and you

I wake and watch you breathing with your eyes closed

Sometimes I wonder when you sleep

Are you ever dreaming of me?

I wake in the night, I pace like a ghost

You know, I didn't want to have to haunt you.

As I paced back and forth all this time

Yeah, I want you.

I notice everything you do and don't do.

I remember it all too well

You put up walls and paint them all a shade of gray

Use up my best colors for your portait

Paint me a blue sky

Then go back and turn it to rain

Why'd you have to go and lock me out when I let you in

When I loved you so?

I didn't have it in myself to go with grace

So I start a fight, cause I need to feel something

Took this dagger in me and removed it

Who could ever leave me darling?

So casually cruel in the name of being honest

Crossing out the good years

Echoes of your footsteps on the stairs

There in my rear view mirror disappearing now

People like me are gone forever when you say goodbye.

I'm shining like fireworks over your sad empty town

I know my love should be celebrated.

It was rare. I was there.

Counting all the scars you made

I was a dreamer before you went and let me down

I remember it all too well.

Dear John:

I’ve never met anyone as cold as you! Say you’re sorry! Sorry for your sweet disposition! It could’ve been so easy, but now? My reputation’s never been worse! There’s nothing left for me now, so I guess I’ll just jump off the train, ride off alone. You know I don’t want to have to haunt you, but I will if you make me. Believe me, I could do it!

sincerely:

Taylor.