I don't know why you made me cry

I was glad we said goodbye

You were the wolf, I was a lamb

When I cried you gave no damn

Two years old with big brown eyes

For my age I was too wise

In my sleep I'd wet my bed

When I woke wish I were dead

Fear so deep no child should feel

Scars that seep and never heal

Memory of you nothing but fear

Knees would shake when you were near

Three years old, nearly took my life

Not my fault mom was your wife

Fighting to breathe in the ICU

How could you? I have no clue.

Mom left you when I was six

Too much damage to try to fix

Couple years later you used a gun

Shot yourself, hope it was fun.

The distance between us is as wide as an ocean

Our minds hours apart and worlds away

We could close the gap by simply picking up the phone

But neither of us know what to say

We are at an impasse things were said that had been kept hidden

There is no way to turn back the clock or deny what has been said

I suppose we could forget the last few days

Simply agree to disagree instead

But you and I know that the past shall not remain behind us

Every little detail has been engraved in to our very core

You were with another whom you kissed as you once kissed me

Touched as you once touched me before

You stood in front of me dressed only in regret

Tears falling from your eyes

Anger blinded me silenced my tongue

All I thought of was you between her thighs

I once revered you and thought you a good man

But as you tried to reason why you broke our sacred vow

I could not help but see you as weak and pitiful

My mind detached from the here and now

Then came the words of anger and spite

Cruel and unkind fired one by one

I could not see past your repentance I offered no forgiveness

All I wanted was for you to swallow the barrel of a gun

So here we are miles apart

Yet connected by a thread of pain

I love you but cannot be with you

I miss you but never want to see your face again

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