If I had known that I would lose you so young, maybe I’d have paid more attention. There’s so much I wish I’d learned from you. I’m doing those things now. Trying my best to do them like you did.

If I had known that it was going to happen that day, I would have been home to greet you at the door. Could I have made a difference? Probably not but at least I could have said good bye.

If I had known, I would have gotten along better with you. I was only eighteen. I was stupid. You were the greatest man I’ve ever known. If I had known I was gonna lose you, I’d have told you that... everyday.

I miss you, Dad. I love you. RIP ♥️

Love,

Ken

If I'd known

That you were just wet cement

Poured on my feet,

I would have ran away

before you had a chance to dry

But I thought it was different

You seemed like my forever,

My other half. The one who would never desert me

We would fly together, and soar above the clouds

Cement sticks, it doesn't want to budge once it hardens

You started to dry

I realized I was stuck

Couldn't move, dance, run,

only trapped in your dry, hard, clutches

telling me I could never escape

your love, your thoughts, your life

We would never fly

As I thought we would.

And so I took a pickaxe

Chipped you away, until I was free

If only I had known.

The painful

heartbreaking process

Filled with anger,

tears, dull aches,

and eventual healing, as I bandaged my feet,

And finally flew

If I’d known

The world could fall apart

So easily,

I would have never

Tried to shake the ground

With my actions

If I’d known

How fragile we all were,

I would have held on tighter

I would have been more careful

I would have never said goodbye

Just because I was angry

If I’d known

There are only

So many mistakes you can make

Before the world

Turns on you,

I would have never opened my mouth

If I’d known

Sharing your true thoughts

Meant being ridiculed

And betrayed,

I would never have opened up

To anyone

If I’d known

How wrong someone could be

I would never have followed you

So blindly

If I’d known

How much you were hurting,

I would have helped

I really do care

I’m not the monster you see me as

I’m just a girl

Who doesn’t see things

Until it’s too late

If I’d known I would never see you again,

I wouldn’t have hidden my feelings

I would have told you exactly how I felt

I would have begged you to keep me in your life

No matter how hard it would be,

Being apart is harder

Knowing you don’t know how much I love you is harder

Why didn’t I realize how much you needed me?

I tried to ignore the tears in your eyes

When I said I was never coming back

But keep down,

I wanted to cry as well

If I’d known you wouldn’t move on,

I would have never given you the chance to

How did I not see how hard it was for you to trust me?

I didn’t realize you wouldn’t be able to trust again

How could you?

The one person you opened up to left you

I wish I’d known

If I had know you would have done this,

as everyone else does.

I probably wouldn't have said yes,

I would've left it as it was.

Things were good. I was fine.

I didn't need you.

But here you came, and

Broke my heart in two.

You weren't trying to,

To do anything;

That's what killed my heart.

I did everything.

I wished you sweet dreams, kissed you goodnights.

I dressed up in lace and wore jeans like tights.

And you said nothing.

If I had known you'd were going to toss me aside,

Then perhaps, I could hold onto my pride.

But I had not known.

Lucky you.

If I'd known,

You were gonna leave,

I would have said goodbye.

But now,

You are gone,

And I wonder why.

If I'd known,

I'd never see you again,

I would have tried,

To see you differently.

But I still,

See you,

Do you see me?

If I'd known, I would not have fallen.

I can take all the cliches life has offered;

all the woulda-shoulda-coulda's,

the I would if I could,

but I can't so I wont's,

roll them in a ball,

throw it all away

like yesterday's trash.

Even now,

if I'd have known,

in any year of life,

what I know now,

nothing would have changed.

Nothing would be rearranged.

All things that happen, happens.

the knowing only slows down

the inevitable.

Would it be nice to win a lottery,

or a bet on and win the Super Bowl?

You bet.

Life-long dreams realized,

but life still remains the same.

I am still the same me.

You still love,

those you love still die.

The Earth still spins.

As I was in birth,

I will be in death.

Me.

If I'd known . . . I never would have let you out that day.

If I'd known . . . I would have kept you by my side.

If I'd known . . . I would have gotten to you faster.

If I'd known . . . I would have gone back for help sooner.

If I'd known . . . I wouldn't have had to let you go.

If I'd known.

If only I'd known.