Two desires,

Both hungry for fulfilment,

Gnawing at my insides

A longing for freedom,

While wishing to assist

Those around me

One will bring my own joy,

The other will leave

My loved ones in blind disarray

My own happiness

Or theirs?

Which decision is right?

What is best for me?

Either choice will come with strife,

Consequences that'll affect

The entirety of my life

Stretched between

Two distinct desires

Which desire

Is alright to feel?

Will I ever

Truly know?

There is a gloom enshrouds me

midst solitude and company

...seems an abyss before me...

-So stretched am I, worn and hiding-

No comfort, no relief

both agony and grief

wretchedness and pain

seeking friendship and silence

in one place

...

My mind numb,

my heart worn,

my soul upon the rack,

how long until I’m torn?

because of crowded halls and empty walls

I mourn.

I am and I desire

both and, neither nor.

Wherein lies the middle way?

There my soul should gladly stay

Midst loneliness and overcompany,

my heart there waits for me.

Her glow slowly dims

Fades and slips in the deep

Where it’s drowned in the sea,

Vast humanity

It swallows her being

And sense of her worth

Her form and her beauty,

She vainly set forth

Afloat in the depths,

Isolated and cold

While lost, she discovers

An island of old

Departing the water

She rests on its shore

The isle of her heart

Where wealth’s evermore