What if the next thing

I told you was a lie

Would you wish

It was true

If I told you

I loved someone else

Would you wish

It was you

What if

I broke our promises

Would you wish

I´d followed through

If I told you

The reasons why I loved him

Would you wish

There were only a few

What if

I hadn´t told the truth

Would you wish

We could just redo

If I told you

I loved you

Would you wish

It wasn´t overdue

What if I was prettier,

would you look at me more?

What if I was funnier,

would you smile at me more?

But if I'm not,

do you even care?

What if I was smarter,

would you talk to me more?

What if I was kinder,

would you be with me more?

But if I'm not,

do you even care?

What if I loved myself more,

would all this matter?

But if I can't,

can I be free?

One day.

Maybe...

What if the world stopped for a moment

And the bright light of Heaven seeped in

Every bird singing in harmony

And each star melting into one

What if the clouds stopped rolling in the sky

And the city lights turned off

Each pair of eyes fixated on the horizon

And each face turned into a smile

What if time slowed down

And it was just me and you sitting here on this beach

Gazing at the everexpanding universe above us

Wihtout a care in the world, or a clock to tell us out time is up

Taking it a step further, what if time didnt exist

And we could stay this young forever

Eyes locked, souls entwined

No restraints

Jutst us

Forever

What if

What if I could’ve spent had more time with him

Done more before the light in his eyes went dim

What if I’d stood up and defended myself more

And soared onward in my career and out the door

What if I had spent my money without so much haste

Working for a future without a drop of sweat to waste 

What if I had a chance to do it all over again

Would I look back and say  'remember when’?

What if…

I didn’t go through the Dark Night of The Soul

last October?

What if when my soul cried throughout the vastness

of the Universe

echoing a haunting melody

only meant for you to hear

instead you ignored it?

What if my poem “She is Libra” was never posted?

leaving our souls never colliding…

What if I didn’t answer your message

or entertained a possible friendship with

you?

What if I never told you my deep feelings

for this connection and just left it as is?

Protecting myself from a possible

splinter…

What if I never answer your calls or

your messages?

Because I am tied to karmic relationships,

past insecurities, and

so much healing needs to happen…

That’s the thing about “what ifs”, it can plant

seeds of doubt or it can plant

seeds of certainty.

What if I got on a plane

and step foot on your land

standing right before you?

What if it doesn’t matter…

Because I am here in this moment

and so are you...?

What if I was truly good,

innocent and untampered?

What if I had worked hard forever,

instead of being slightly pampered?

What if I had been kinder, wiser?

What if I had been the freind you needed?

What if I had been considerate?

What if I had gave instead of pleaded?

What if I had been agreeable?

What if I had felt my remorse sooner?

I have always wanted to be a good person-

but I ended up a swooner.

Oh, what if I had apoligised?

What if I had come out clean,

instead of lying?

Oh, why was I so mean?

What if I stop worrying now-

what if I move forwards now?

What If I do better, now?

But my only question is... how?

What if I chose to be there more often?

Would I regret the time lost?

All of the memories forgotten?

Could we gain it all back?

Rewrite the past

Every word left unspoken.

What if I could deliver them to you?

Through the door you kept half-open,

As if to say, "What if?"

What if

this beautiful world

inside my head,

became my truth.

What if

my deepest desires

were fulfilled,

not discouraged.

Sometimes we must accept

that some "what if's" will never

be more than a "what if".