Nature and its beauty, 

People and their hearts. 

Deciding not to observe all this, 

Instead, shutting them out. 

Close your eyes, 

Block your ears. 

Look at the darkness, 

Stare at the void.

Listen to monsters, 

Act as their toy.

To hate is to not see the beauty, 

To hate is to not feel the warmth. 

To hate is to lose, 

What you could have warded.  

Do not hate, 

The darkness is a scary place. 

Begin to love, 

And share the light. 

I do not hate, 

For I choose to love. 

Love is beauty, 

Even when it pains. 

There is no joy

Where there is hate. 

And what is life

Where there is no joy.

So open your eyes, 

And take in the beauty. 

Feel with your heart, 

And see what I see. 

I smile because I have hope,

Hope in those around me. 

I have hope in their potential and talent. 

I have hope in their happiness and well-being. 

I have hope in their perseverance and strength.

I have hope in their futures. 

Every single day, 

As I look around,

All I see are amazing people. 

I would give compliments 

and encouragement 

and support. 

I would give smiles

And kind gestures,  

And it warms my heart

Whenever one is returned. 

But at the end of the day, 

As I lay in bed, 

Struggling to fall asleep, 

Looking at the cloudy night sky, 

I think to myself...

Why am I so incompetent? 

I do not have potential or talent. 

I am not happy, nor am I well. 

I do not have the strength to persevere. 

I do not have a future, 

Not one where I can smile for myself. 

I had wish there was someone

To give me compliments

And encouragement

And support. 

I had wish there was someone

To give me smiles 

And kind gestures-- 

So I could warm their hearts

By returning the actions. 

I had wish there was someone 

To make me feel amazing, 

Contrary to how I feel. 

I am not happy. 

And I am reminded of the fact

Every time I smile. 

Smiling hurts. 

And I can no longer take the pain.