Symphony of Deadened Dreams Rotting From the Seams
There’s this god awful smell
And it’s coming from inside
I think I’m rotten at the core
Rotten as can be
I slit a vein just to know
What’s living inside
Bubbling to the surface all I found
Was a wave of sewage pouring out of me
Rotten, broken, sick
There’s nothing I can do
Sitting with myself
In a cage of flesh and bone
There’s only one escape
I slit a vein and wait
I let all the garbage seep away
But all I am is this stink inside
If you drain it all away you’ll find
Nothing left behind
If I can find a way
A way out of this place
I’d find my home in hell
A rotting filthy putrid place
It’s the hole where I belong
So dying here so fucking slow
I know
There’s nothing left behind
Red Venom
Like spiders nesting beneath the skin
Her words floated around me
With tattered eyes and red swollen lips
Venom lived in her blood
And as she softly bled
She painted white roses red
Waterfalls fell from her cobalt eyes
My Crimson Queen's cheeks once so bright
Now drained into white rose sheets
As her wrist poured venom
She softly died
And painted the castle red
Not Stopping
If I could fly
I'd traverse the Pacific
Bundle up against the cold
Hungry winds
So not an inch of warm
Seeps through
If I could fly
I'd never land
Not for food or rest
Well
Maybe for a bathroom break
Or two
But no
If I could fly
I'd move so fast
With a trail of supersonic boom
Slammed behind
I'd pack in all my joy
My laughs and hope
And I'd bring them all
To you
Well, shit
There was something funny about all this. About being stabbed in the back. With a pencil no less. I mean, it didn't hurt, not too back at least. But dang. I didn't see it coming. One minute we were laughing, just stumbling to the convenience store in a late-night conquest for more Bud Lights, watching the sallow green grass bend in the breeze. The party of strangers at my house was still booming with music I didn't enjoy, but I enjoyed you. Our journey. A little escape from social charades. I grinned and you grinned too. That's about when you stabbed me. The lead pinched through my old cotton T, breaking into the soft skin stretched over my spine. I jumped, not with pain, but shock and I peered at you with new eyes. I'd been played. You were no friend. Just another guy with a padlocked soul. Playing social charades. And I a spent candle with the wick snapped away.
Hope on the Horizon
The Skies ooze joy
And it's hot
Acid really
It falls
Indiscritant in murder
In burning
The roofs
We built to protect
Turned to kindling
Fuel to an element
We wish just kept us
Warm
In retaliation
The Earth
Heaves open its
Maw
Where the ocean were
Spit
Rivers were
Sweat
And mountains were
Pimples
It swallows up the Sky
Eats up the joy
And in return
We humans
Are blessed with
Sorrow
We are doused in
Cold
And laugh with no sun
To bring us
Tomorrow
Still Searching
Listen,
I've looked everywhere
In the TV
Our favorite shows
In your room
Where dust just
Grows
In our photos
Our faces locked
In toothy smiles
Safety off
On that old joy
Now look here
Your bed is made
No one sleeps there
Anymore
I do not tread
I do not linger
Just peak in
And run away
Where the fuck
Did you go?
And what the hell
Do I do
Now?
You stole the joy
Straight from
My heart
Why do I still love you
When we're
Apart
You Can
Whatever you do
Don’t Look Back
There’s a mirror behind you
And it’s black
It’s heavy
And stained with soot
Whatever you do
Look ahead
It’s clear
Well, mostly
But it’s empty of fire
Empty of ash
“But it’s filled with nothing!”
I cry out
Against my narrator
My god
My author
My lonesome companion
Who I do not know
And she replies
That’s right
That’s why
You have strong hands
A muscular back
Made for work
A heart of carbon
Flexible and a conductor
Of energy abound
So build
Whatever the hell
You want
I am not
Your god
Acrid or Placid
I will set your house on fire
Before I'm forced to live in it
With you
I will burn your life
Away
Your confidence
Your hope
Before you can kill mine
I will set your world
Into a fire tornado
You know
Like the ones we now see
On TV
I will destroy myself
Before you hurt me
But you just smile
And say
"Okay,
I'll do the dishes tonight."
I open my fist
And you take my hand
And you know what
I'd take it all back
If you do the dishes
Every night
Please?