"

"Well that's impossible, everyone is fallible."

I looked at him and smiled, "Including you and I."

He looked puzzled for a second as he heard the pause in my sentence.

"But the difference between you and I is that every time you made a mistake, I forgave you. I always forgave you. I made one mistake and you forgotten my existence."

"

stay contained in my chest 

stay away build a wall into your comfort of the corner 

stay in your safe 

so that boy won´t break your heart 

stay in your room 

stay where I put you 

go back into the book 

he ain´t real

go get the knife and stab your heart

let´s go emotionally numb 

let´s stop feeling hun 

because every time I see the light 

I am caving into his chest 

I just love the way he makes me feel 

I  am so into our world 

where the only words that matter 

is the story we are creating 

I am feeling your words 

I am breathing you to life 

I am so enamored with the story we are creating in the bedroom you and I 

liquating

drenched 

drooping

feelings

that sway my mood 

that shape the words I say 

for the day 

that tug and shrug 

at my heart 

thoughts that are homeless 

that lack no home 

humanless blobs 

lodged in my nose globs of snot 

of things I hoped that I would not 

take another shot of tears for my struggles 

that I deal with every day

with the acceptance of me 

so that I could to be who I desire to be

that these daily struggles 

are more of my daily battles 

that rattles my brain 

and causes my eyes to rain

because my pain can't be contain 

so I wallow myself in shame 

about how I am lame and weak 

afraid how I am about to tweak 

and snap and crackle  and pop and fizzle out of life

with one uncap of my  pen

I can turn my pen into a knife 

to save myself from my everlasting strife 

and so I don´t have to cry about it to my friend's wife 

and mumble about the last tango I had with death and life 

this endless struggle with the need

to stay alive 

and to feel dead 

to keep my feelings safe 

and locked way into a safe 

if only I could have a taste of the ink that droops from my pen 

that stabs and takes little dabs at my soul 

with the words, I sprawl into the paper forcing me to crawl back into challenges

because I fear 

I am  going to tear 

into 2 emotionally 

and have to relocate vocationally 

and learn this trade 

and flip the card into spades 

because you won´t ever see the whole me 

I use the challenges as way to escape into a wall 

so I can crawl out my position cramped and ached and stand tall 

But my words will cause you to fall 

because I will always twist your perceptions 

and always wondering what the hell I am talking about 

and your mouth in a pout looking kind of like a trout 

yeah my mind is twisted 

my words in my writes 

will fit you like tights 

cause you to sink in the night 

drop down low and make you wanna fight 

talk shit then you just might get fisted 

I am inspired by people 

so poke the bear 

and I´ll make the world stare my dear

 you are my nightmare

my everlasting demon

your canine teeth sinking into my heart 

puncturing my nerves and now 

I am emotionally numb 

to the core 

I can´t move my fingers 

I can´t taste 

I can´t feel the keys 

I can´t make sense of this feeling 

i whisper wishes

of feathery sleep

to a princess trapped

beneath water stained skies,

lost in a forest

of paint peels and cracks

i whisper wishes

of feathery sleep

to a dreamer haunted

by wingless flight,

locked in a cage

too high to survive the fall

i whisper wishes

of feathery sleep

to a heart cursed

with fading stars and

a waning moon

in the raven room.

All broken children's dreams end fast. 

Gone, 

hope in justice, 

kindness, 

love. 

Martyrs, 

not on purpose. 

Quiet, 

righteous 

sufferers, 

taken under vows.

Wasted.

brown creeks drown everything.

forgotten grasses, 

hidden in jammed knolls,

lamenting minnows 

numb, or

panicking quietly -

reversed surrender.

Troubled, untroubled,

vitreous water's xenocide,  

yowling zenith. 

I created a world where you and I lived together,

And you destroyed the timeline to go live with another.

I forgave you.

I destroyed a world where you and I lived together,

And you created the timeline to go live with another.

You didn't forgive me.