sting
i can’t understand why my brain won’t move on
sometimes it feels like he locked me in a room and threw away the key
and i’ve built myself walls to forget where i am
but god i can hear him screaming the awful things he did
and i feel so guilty sometimes
as if everything was my fault
and i panic and wonder if he ever loved me
i panic and wonder if this will ever go away because i am suffocating
in my own guilt
that i shouldn’t even feel
i am suffocating in my own guilt even though my shooting star is there
how can i pull myself back up when i have no foothold
i feel so lost now, and i can’t find a map
he ruined my body and my innocence and now he is ruining my sleep
he is ruining me over and over again and i don’t know what to do
god please help me
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