Only I

I must fall, so I can rise

The only way to reach my endgame is through my own demise

I must choke, so I can breathe

I must stay here at the moment, so I can leave

I have to be strong & put up a fight

I have to do wrong before I can do right

I'm making mistakes & tumbling fast

I'm losing my grip while searching the past

I'm foiling the game & taking steps back

One day I'll make up for all that I lack

I'll disappoint you & I'll cause you pain

Everything I do is always in vain

You'll never know it by the look on my face

But I'm slowly fading

I'm falling from grace

I must lie, so the truth is revealed

I must cut myself wide open, so I can watch my scars be healed

I must get drunk, so I can be clean

I must stay in the shadows before I can be seen

I have to survive & keep breathing

I have to let go instead of seething

I'm fucking up fast & losing my mind

I'm trying to keep up with the Devil behind