All I ever wanted was to know the love of a mother.
Even though I know who you are, I don't know what your love feels like.
I wanted to lay in my mother's bed and cry during my first heartbreak.
Other girls could call their mother's for advice, and I just had to figure everything out.
Until the day I die, I will always wonder what it feels like to have a mother's love.
#SuchABelle
perceptible by touch
I still feel amused when I think of her red dress
I mean, everyone knows you don't put silk against silk
and the feel of her skin
couldn't have been anything else
yet the memory
of how easily
it slipped off her body made it worth the while,
you see,
my amusement
and that tangible electricity in the air that she provided
made the most interesting mixture... it really did
what a silly, little dress it was
Crying over You
. . . this bottle of
Love you feel is . . .
“hermetically sealed”
You carry precariously
a feeling you can
not spill . . .
Love is what you
have yet cannot give
You can go hot . . .
. . . or cold . . .even
grow old . . . and
never from out of
you can your love
be poured . . .
Only you yourself
can sip of it and
know its punch to
say you love or not
this much . . .
and sense to the full
extent (dis)comforts
as such . . .
What can the lover
offer then to another ?
. . . .
Yourself, and life zest,
your influence, time and
presence in entirety . . .
as the Gift itself.
#ProseInspired #Love
Infinity...
We are infinite
Travel across the galaxy
Orbit your solar system
Hoping to fall into your planet
Asteroids Are the obstacles that prevent me from reaching an 7hrs difference
Meteor are what happens when we collide
Interstellar of darkness
Black holes are the negative energy that disrupts this world
In a sky of stars
Couldn’t shine my way home
Travel light years
And still would never be able to reach you
What it’s like to love the infinity
And never reach your serenity
Comets are empty wishes
Never land is place filled with should of and would’ve
Shooting stars
Are leftovers from pixie dust
Mars
Is the train stop
To home
And back
But earth don’t even want me
And Saturn rings couldn’t even contain me
And I can’t keep jumping to Jupiter
And get lost in your fumes
We hit the gas
In our spaceship
We haven’t even hit the takeoff
Stuck in the stages
1
See trip into the past
And fall back to the future
I ain’t even gonna lie
I tried that clock
Stuff
It didn’t work
I tried to jumpstart
The future
Maybe that’s why I crashed when I landed
See I still stuck in the spacesuit
Cause I am scared of this big blue world
I walk around like astronaut
Can’t even touch the ground
I am vibing on a new wave
See ground control
To major Tom.
Landed in the moon
Left my footprint
So you know I tried
Apollo
We a landmark
They thought
We would never make it
Stabilize all landings
I amma need you to see me your location
I amma eject myself
Cause i am foreseen
The danger of riding at a speed I can’t seem to control
Transmit my message
Solar panels
Sos
Fall from the sky
Maybe I fall from crowds
Slip into a black hole
And maybe we could meet in the middle
Of destruction
We got lost in. Our child dreams
Looking for a star
They all look the same
We your eyes have gone gray
And mermaids look like fish
When the magic runs out
And tiger lily
Is just a flower
And Peter Pan
Is just peanut butter
Tinker bell
Is just new drug
And Wendy
Is just an restaurant
And hook is just something kids use to hang themselves in bathrooms
And smitty
Is the nickname is given to me
And pixie dust
Is cocaine
Boats don’t fly
Only airplanes
Everbody is a lost boy
Love ain’t real
Cause it will leave you blue
Tiaras break when applied with pressure
And boys aren’t princes
Their frogs
And happily ever after
Is for story books
You could paint with all the colors of the wind and still feel dead
You could see the light and be consumed by darkeness
You could be in a whole new world and still feel like an alien
You could look in your reflection and hate yourself
You could be a genie in a bottle , but the make tricks run out , and frown will appear
You could be a beauty and the beast and the monster would still overpower you
You could be a sleeping beauty , and have insomnia
You could be as far as you go , but be closer to death
You could dream a wish your heart makes and still dream a nightmare
The world gone gray
He hands me a pack of color pencils
And says color your reality
And I smirk
Cause he has eyes still have color in them
And he still smile like the world was never broken
And he stares at me
At my broken mind
And sees a world
I don’t tell him it is a funeral
Cause he making flower crowns
How fitting I think
I am Persephone
The goddess of hades
Bury me in roses ....
And I will color your world in pastels
Marshmallows
Marshmallows suck. There. I said it. Before you attack me hear me out. Let me set the scene. You're sitting outside on a chilly October night, surrounded by your closest friends, laughing and singing dumb campfire songs. Even though the music is loud, the comforting crackling of the fire is still heard and it reminds you that you are here. You are not spinning around alone and forgotten. You are here. In your best friend's backyard, with your other friends, with food, with music. For a split second, everything is okay. You don't think about how you failed your Chemistry test. You don't think about how your dad left. You don't think about how Katniss should have gotten with Gale. You don't feel crippled by life. You feel okay.
Until Emma brings out the marshmallows. Sure, some people like them. They're soft. Squishy. Kind of like boobs. But those little clouds of gelatin, corn starch, sugar and water are demons in disguise. They are impossible to roast properly. If you overcook them they shrivel and burn, just like your GPA. If you undercook them, they're hot and cold. Indecisive. Just like that girl you were gonna ask out. Marshmallows can act like they are perfect. All golden on the outside when really they are just sticky and gross on the inside, just like your life. On the outside you seem to have everything together when in reality you are just as confused and lost as everyone else. But, for the sake of those still clinging to the hope that marshmallows are good, lets just say you were able to correctly cook one. It's golden. Melty. Not too burnt, not too soft. Right in between.
Now try eating it. You can try this three different ways. The first, is just eating it right off the skewer. Good luck with that. You will burn your face off. In your haste to remove the smoldering skewer from your face you will burn your fingers. You will end up in the emergency room with second degree burns and when the nurse asks you what happened, you will lose all dignity and tell her you tried to eat a marshmallow.
The second, is waiting until the marshmallow has cooled down enough to touch and eating it with your hands. Bad plan. Very. Bad. Plan. Only three things can bring something together faster than a college student with a two hour deadline; Hate, the gel form of super glue and a half melted marshmallow. Got melted marshmallow between your fingers? Get used to living a cohesive life with your fingers cemented together, because friend, that's never coming off. It will get stuck in your hair. It will get stuck in your clothes. Accidentally touch someone? Congratulations! You and that poor person are now siamese twins. There is no escaping it. You will suffer through life with a preventable handicap. All because you tried to eat a marshmallow.
The third and final way one can try to enjoy a marshmallow is by making a smore. What could be better than a warm chocolate covered melted marshmallow squished between two golden graham crackers? Sanity. Have you ever tried to eat a smore? The chocolate never stays on the marshmallow. The graham crackers always break. You will burn fingers and your mouth. The chocolate will always be colder than the marshmallow. And those are just the trials of eating a smore, I'm not even going to mention how hard it is to make one. Twenty years later you are still living in denial. You still pretend to enjoy this process. You are trapped in a never ending saga, because you just had to eat a marshmallow.
So, Emma brings out the marshmallows. Everyone gets up and goes for the skewers. You sit alone, accompanied only by the cold air, distant laughter from friends and the fire. The red, blue and orange swirl together into flames and the comforting crackling has now turned into a mocking laugh. You are alone. Again. Marshmallows suck.
Skin.
My skin is infinite. It stretches on for miles and miles. It has curves, swivels, crests and troughs. It is the layer of me that everybody can look through, but nobody can peel away. It is that fragment of my existence that defines my rank, king or pauper, peer or slave. It is the true hallmark of my work.
It forever binds me to my tribe. Yet it encourages me to break away. It reminds me of the legacy that I have been bestowed, of the sacrifices of my loved ones.
Yet I keep thinking, how does it resist and refract so much? How does it swim in water and not dissolve away? How does it hear all the insults and not fall and break away? How does it feel everything and not wither away?
Every birthmark that spans the course of your skin is an encouragement. An encouragement to prompt you, to show you that bumps and hurdles are not stop signs, they are just to warn you of the speedbreakers ahead and to prepare you for life.
It is truly an ally, sticks with you till the end (pun intended) .
And remember ,every difference that exists on the skin, reflects the longing for unification deep within.
8/10/18