Announcement!
Some of you know, but I recently cofounded a small publishing press—Querencia Press
We currently have an open themed call for anthology submissions, as well as always being open for manuscript submissions.
When my last 3 books were published, many of you asked if I could pass work on to my publishers, and I felt bad because that just isn’t how it works. They don’t care to hear about who you know and recommend.
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Bloodred
Tonight, the king would take his last breath.
I ran my hands over the wood of the table nervously. It was a great feast to celebrate the new treaty and all of the council was present. I shifted my eyes over each face, gauging their loyalty. Out of fifteen, I knew only three could be trusted.
I played with the pork on my plate. All around, the men were doing the same, carefully watching the king with hunger in their eyes. The night before, I had seen this moment dancing in the flames of the fire, a prophetic vision. I had watched the king eat and drink heartily. In a second, he was dead on the floor.
A servant entered with a small flask of wine, placing it in front of the king. My father slid it to his taster—as was custom—but was distracted by a tapping on the table. It was his most trusted adviser, a man with a long face and gray beard.
“I wish to speak for a mere second, if I may,” he said. “I want to honor our great king and this peace treaty, and the future they represent. This wine is for our great ruler, specially retrieved for him from the deepest cellar in the richest winery in this nation. Thank you, my king and brother.”
The implication was clear, that the wine was too fine for the taster. It was clear to me at once. The wine must be poisoned, though I had been was sure my uncle was honest. My father hesitated, but he took the flask in his hands.
I desperately tried to signal him with my eyes, but he did not even look at me. He was a kind and fair king, but we had never had much of a relationship or connection. Thinking of the nation, I leapt from my seat. The men jumped to their feet at once.
All would see the snake my uncle was when I died.
Ignoring them, I snatched the flask from my father’s hands, downing it in one gulp.
My intro
HERE IS A picture. I’m 9 years old hiding under the covers of my bed. My arms are throbbing and inflamed. What’s going on in my head is it’s all my fault. Guilt. You can see my cheeks stained with tears. My teeth hurt due to biting my arms . Nine marks. Nine bites for nine years. My friend is outside with an ice pack on her leg. My dad is consoling her. He sent me to my room. Heidi and I were playing on the swings in my backyard. We were laughing. Childhood joy. But then she fell and scraped her leg. Waterworks. My dad came rushing and immediately declared that her injury was completely my fault. He sent me to my room. That was the first time I felt true guilt. True self hate. The first time I started hurting myself.
The Darkness After
The snow covers the ground outside my home like a satin white death shroud. I have weathered the Christmas atmosphere and all the pomp surrounding it with a sense of grim finality. You see, despite all the joyous romanticism surrounding this time of year, I know the true nature of this soul chilling season. An evil borne from the stuff of nightmares was coming and no amount of peace on Earth and good will toward men could stop it.
So, I sit in front of a flickering fire waiting for that which would surely bring a black end to the naive merriment that intoxicates people when the days grow short and the first snow falls. Oh, I have tried to warn them, but they scoff at my efforts and call me a grinch. I wish I could slip into the same delirium that infects the rest of humanity, but I cannot. It is coming and I will meet my end with my faculties untainted by the warm psychosis brought on by egg nog, colorful lights, and Halmark movies.
The winter silence outside is broken by the harbinger of evil I have been waiting for. I hear the, crunch crunch sound of foot steps on my unshoveled walk as my end grows ever closer. My doorbell rings and I rise to meet my fate. My end may be near, but it will not be said that I ran from it. My hand shakes as I open the door. Outside, a phantom figure standing in the shadow of my door silently hands me that which will be my undoing. Envelopes embelished with the logos of Visa, Master Card, and Discover, bring me to my knees. The first credit card bills of yuletide. My fate is sealed. Death by debt most foul.
Oíche Shamhna (Halloween)
Dark and dreary
Restless spirits
Rising from their graves
The cold wind blows
Dry Autumn leaves
Rustling over tombstones
Beneath cold damp earth
...something stirs.
Damp soil percolates up
Over scattering leaves
Something moves
Rising beneath the gravestones
Clouds gather under a full moon tonight!
Rumbling sounds of undead rising
The living shall not sleep this night
The cold wind heard whistling through the trees
Voices
Low mutters
Soft moans
Piercing the cold dark night
Cold,
Lifeless
Disembodied voices cry
...In the wind
The rotting stench of death
Permeates the air this night
Flesh decaying
Their trunks swaying
Pumpkins sit outside
Candles lit inside
To scare away
Those souls who wander tonight
The undead, stumbling, walking
Decaying hands outstretched
Need to feed
This one night of the year
Mingling with the living
This one special night
What tricks might they play
Upon those who refuse them?
Or will it be treats tonight
For those who walk alone
Disguised as the living
As beggars upon your doorstep
Fooling the living
Freedom from the grave
They walk upon the earth
One night of the year
Dark and dreary
Misty, gloomy
Midnight strikes
Time to sleep again
Crunching leaves
Upon the cold ground
Brown and lifeless
Scattered in the wind
Slowly I place my hand
Upon this chest
Where I dare not look down
To confirm my suspicions
Sadly, I tear upon the decaying flesh
Where once upon a time
A living heart
...Beat there
(c) BAM
Happy Halloween Everyone!!!!
Little Suzie Slasher
Suzie Slasher didn’t age
Her parents kept her in a cage
One night when the moon was high
She slipped through the bars to say good-bye
She woke her mom with a kiss
Smiling like nothing was amiss
Except before they could yell
Giggling, she went to the mantel
Suzie picked up a glass vase
and smashed it into her dad’s face
“Okay, We’ll buy you a pony! ”
“Oh, It’s too late for that Mommy”
Tying her mom to the bed
Suzie climbed out the window and fled
Curtains already on fire
Soon no trace of what transpired
Since then, no one dares say no
Spoiling her rotten with kowtow
If Suzie Slasher wants to play
Careful of what you want to say
For she’s only gotten worse
Being Suzie’s friend is a curse
But you’d better play along
Lest you want a verse in this song
Fresh Meat.
Around two years ago, I was 26 and had just bought my first house. It wasn’t anything fancy, but I was really proud of myself. I felt like I had finally “made it.” A responsible adult residing in a quiet suburban neighborhood, working from 9 to 5, living the “American Dream.” This delusion was only strengthened when I received a knock at my door. I naïvely assumed that it was a friendly neighbor coming to greet me.
I opened the front door to find an impressively tall and burly man. He had a long ginger beard and was sporting a red-plaid flannel. He looked like a modern-day lumberjack. He also just happened to smell like barbeque ribs. This must be the guy who hosts the neighborhood cook-outs, I assumed.
“Hey there, pal! The name’s Chuck. I saw the moving van this morning. I was mowin’ the grass and I thought I’d come over to see the fresh meat myself!” He offered me his hand, which had to be twice the size of my own. His grip was so strong that I was certain he would break my entire hand.
“It’s nice to meet you, Chuck.” I had always been a pretty socially awkward guy, so the formalities of this introduction made me tense.
“Don’t be so jittery, cowboy! I didn’t mean to startle you. Say, would you mind if I try and make it up to you?”
He flashed me a toothy grin. It looked like he had some sort of meat stuck in his teeth. This only made me more unnerved, but I sustained my optimism and I convinced myself that this was just a normal, neighborly thing.
After agreeing to his proposal, he basically dragged me to his house, which happened to be directly across from mine. His lawn was so overgrown that the grass brushed my knees, and his house looked like it was about to collapse. The windows were broken, and it looked abandoned. That was my first clue of something being wrong.
“Just a bit farther, friend! I’ll cook you up somethin’ real special!” I could hear the morbid excitement in his voice, and I knew that I desperately needed to escape. We arrived at a small building behind his supposed house and he turned to look at me, still wearing that gristle-encrusted smile.
“Just give me a second to open the door here, buddy.” His hold on my wrist loosened as he fumbled with a rusty set of keys. I knew this could be my chance at escape if I was careful.
The door had barely opened when I tore free and ran to my house as fast as I could. From the glimpse that I got, all that was behind that door was a metal table and various medical instruments. I called the police immediately, but when they got there, Chuck was gone.
To this day I’m convinced that I narrowly escaped with my life, and I don’t answer the front door anymore.
Chuck’s Place
Shelby sat down on the backless stool and ordered a Bud Light. She squinted through a window, yellowed with years of BBQ pit smoke. Looking back, she smiled at the familiar walls smeared brown. The greasy air clouded the mirror behind the bar. Taking a sip, she appreciated the cool amber liquid. Chuck’s wasn’t like most BBQ joints in that regard. The beer was actually cold, not like that piss warm beer they served at Three Pigs down the road. Absent mindedly, Shelby picked at her beer label and scraped lines into the label softened with condensation.
“Dammit, Danny” she thought. “Late again.” She’d already been forced to skip lunch due to the open house going late, and now this. She was selling her house—a bigger undertaking than she’d hoped for—even with the bad market. The plan was to move in with Danny as soon as possible. She’d explained to her mother that she loved him and besides, the money she’d save on bills alone would make it worth it.
“Hi Chuck.” Shelby said.
Chuck had come out of the kitchen to mingle with the guests; his usual routine for a Friday evening. He cradled a slab of pork ribs, baked beans, and collard greens. Shelby’s favorite. Grunting, he sat them down with a thud in front of her. The cutting board on which they were served stretched nearly to the front edge of the bar and sauce dribbled lazily down the sides to pool below the edges of the fall-off-the-bone meat.
“Chuck, I’m not ready for food yet. I’m waiting on Danny.”
“And how is Danny?” Chuck asked dryly. He didn’t like the man. There was something about him that Chuck had only recently been able to put his finger on. He didn’t like the way Danny treated Shelby and he sure as hell didn’t like the way Danny told everyone how much he hated Chuck’s food.
“He’s fine Chuck. He’s just running late.”
“What time was he supposed to meet you?”
“Six”
“It’s already a quarter till seven.” Go ahead and eat. On the house. If he gets here, I’ll make sure to invite him back to the kitchen.”
S
helby knew what Chuck meant. Danny had a habit of getting drunk at Chuck’s Place and telling people how dirty the kitchen must be in order to “make shit like that”. Just as Chuck hated Danny, there had been several things about Chuck that Danny didn’t like either. Especially the way he looked at Shelby.
It was nearly eight o’clock by the time she’d finished her rack of ribs and both sides.
“How’s Danny?” Chuck asked smiling.
“He didn’t show. Again” Shelby didn’t look up.
“No. I meant your food. How was Danny?”
My Tainted Soul
My soul has been tainted
My soul longs for the one I crossed paths with
The one I couldn't have met by chance but at the same time didn't stand a chance with
The one where in a blink of the eye the whole world sighed as time stood still as my soul died
My soul has been tainted
Tainted by love and true happiness
fulfilled by a life I could never admit
that I wanted so badly but would never get
She was the one I was supposed to grow grey with
The one I was supposed to walk hand in hand until we died of old age with
The one that made me believe in soul mates and
Beautiful times of perfection topped with undeniable lines of imperfections
But to each other we were all we needed
She was the air I breathed and everything seemed
To fall in place when I was in her presence
It was like Christmas time as an adolescent
The mure thought of her was a present
And every moment had me counting my blessings
But my soul is now tainted
I lost it all in the blink of an eye
For a moment of time I wanted to die
But through the hope things would improve given the time
Maybe one day her love would find mine
My soul has been tainted
I can't even look at another woman anymore
Everything's confusing like hell knocking on heavens door
I had to let her spread her wings and attempt to soar
But now it's my heart my soul my everything that's sore
At every heartbeat I feel it rip a little more
Every breath I take is like drowning at the shore
So close to safety but the ceiling has hit the floor
My soul has been tainted
Will I ever love again the way I once did?
Will I ever have joy again the way I once did?
Will I ever dream again the way I once did?
I sure hope so
But my hope is fading the truth I am facing
My mind is racing while by feet are pacing
Debating
Wondering why it's myself that I'm hating
Forget about that, it's the whole world that I'm hating
Why must I hold the weight, it's the universe that's misbehaving
The stars aligned and everything was how it should be
It was the universe that fucked up and turned its back on me
I'm not being selfish, I just want what I deserve
Don't I deserve true happiness in this prison called like that I serve
I guess not
Because my soul has been tainted
Never to be the same again
This fucking stench called life, when does death ever begin
I'm over it, my soul has been tainted