I’m Sorry
I'm sorry for not being there
but you were my world.
and you left
for another life
for another family
for another me.
And I resented you for that.
So when you came to me
ill and frightened
I didn't know if your atonement
was sincere
or out of fear
but I forgave you anyways.
As time went by
the sicker you looked
and the sicker you looked
the more scared I was to see you.
I didn't want those memories.
I wanted to go back.
Back to our television lounging
soda burping
fried chicken eating days.
I didn't want memories of PICC lines
and your frail frame unable to move.
Cancer slowly took your body.
but never your soul.
You were my papa,
my beer-drinking, chicken-eating best friend.
And I'm sorry for not being there.
Aubade: Wake-Up!
Wake up! Shouts the rooster
for dawn is upon us.
Wake up! Chirps the bird,
for my breakfast is waiting.
Wake up! Blooms the flower
for the sun blesses me with warmth
Wake up! Yips the puppy
for I must investigate the outdoors
Wake up! Drips the coffee
for it’s time to awaken your body.
Wake up! Squeals the child
for I”m hungry & the world has yet to be explored.
Wake up!
for sleep misses out on a new day.