My Aunt walks into the house with a Boquet of Lillies. I switch the tv off “hey I’m home you’re free of devil duty and these are for you as a thank you, I know they're your favourite.” She calls out “oh you spoil me, I love them and you know they behave for me.” I chuckle and lean forward and slip my feet into my black combat boots. I zip them up and just as I finish I hear one of the kids scream.

I move faster then ever “I got it” I call to my aunt and as I reach their bedroom I open the door and the twins are jumping on their older brothers bed while he’s in it.

“Hey!” I say sternly and they freeze “this doesn’t look like sleeping you little monkeys now get back into your bed or you don’t get bedtime stories for a week.” Their eyes widen “yes RayRay sorry.” They jump up onto the ground then into their own bed. “Please tuck us in again?” They ask.

I smile sweetly at them “of course” I walk in tuck them in and kiss them on their forehead. “Good night monkeys” I walk over to the older boy “are you okay little one?” I ask as I tuck him in as well “Raven I’m older now you can’t call me that anymore. But yeah I’m fine I just wanted you to get them away from me.” I smile and kiss him on the forehead as well. “I’ll always be here for you little one,” I say with a smirk. “Good night children time to sleep” I walk over to the door.

“Bye, my little loves. Be good for your Mama or I’ll come over and whoop Y'all into shape.” I say to my little cousins “yes RayRay.” all three call out at once and I smile and close their bedroom door. I walk downstairs and meet my Aunty in the kitchen.

“Hey, Aunty how was your date?” I ask with a smirk “you’re home late....I’m proud of you.” I pat her head “my little girl is growing up so fast.” She smacks my hand away “oh shut up you’re only a mini-me. Okay, you’re you but you’re me as well. My date went well I’ll need you again next Friday night, please? Date two is planned already” I hug her tight “yeah book me in. I’m happy for you Aunty Ree.” I kiss her cheek “I will be back over probably tomorrow but breakfast is in the fridge Brock knows where it is and how to heat it up for the others. I have it written down for him as well. And he has strict instructions not to let you out of your room until 9 pm and he’s bringing you breakfast in bed at 9 pm. Is it alright if I leave the flowers here tonight I walked.” She agrees and We say goodnight and I walk out.

My boots making small thudding sounds but barely there. I learnt to keep myself quite in these streets. Less sound means less attention. I get this weird feeling someone is watching me. I look around a little nervous. Not so much for my safety, I know how to handle myself. I just still get nervous I would have to defend myself.

My phone beeps notifying me I have a message. I pull it out and see it’s a text from my friend Tucker. I frown at how crude he can be about women but roll my eyes amused knowing he’s not going to get laid tonight.

I send a quick good luck reply and look up as I sense something. When I see someone in front of me I jump and drop my phone “shit” I say as I bend down and pick it up.

When I get back up I freeze a little, this woman, no, a goddess is absolutely beautiful. My eyes travel up and down her body and wow she is absolutely beautiful. I see her hands move and I am brought back to reality and I blush. She smirks and tilts her head, man I was busted ogling her and I blush even more.

“What are you doing in a place like this, love?” She asks and if it’s even possible I blush more. I clear my throat to try and get myself together.

I casually cross my arms “I could ask you the same thing. The hot clothes aren’t going to save you if you get mugged.” I say and scold myself on the inside because who flirts like that. I don’t break my mask though. That eyebrow raise and attitude looks hot on her.

“How’s your phone?” She asks and I notice she avoids answering the question as well.

I shrug my shoulders and wave my hand “it’s been through worse, but some of the crystals fell off and it took me so long to make it” I sigh because three hours. Yeah and that wasn’t even the waiting for it to dry part.

“What’s your name?” She asks

“M.m.m.my n.n.name?” I stutter. Gosh, I need to get a handle on this. I tell myself.

“Well, I don’t see anyone else. So yes, your name.”

“My name is Raven. How about yours?” I ask

I slightly blush as she stairs but I don’t think it’s enough for her to see at night and when you smile I mirror it because how can you not?

“Maybe one day I will tell you... because I am certain that, that day will come... Now please, leave this place. You should enjoy some time on this Earth before someone attacks you.” I look at her not sure how to take her words but then I frown.

“Great, so I not only get lectures from my family but also from strangers?” I groan but then smirk as my eyes wander again. My eyes travel up her body meeting her gaze and once again I’m knocked back into reality and blush. I really need to get a handle on this.

“Fine, I need to go anyway. It was nice meeting you... even in these circumstances... “ I wait for a little as I hinted at her giving me her name.

I see her sigh and on the inside I know I won. “Lilly, my name is Lilly and you need to leave.” I fist bump in my mind and nod my head as I walk off.

“Lilly,” I say out loud just wanting to hear it roll off of my tongue. I have a wide smile on my face all the way home. I actually fall asleep with the smile on my face and wake up with it. All in hopes of running into her again.

*

with her hair, she is like the moon to his waves

she is the whispers in his head

the music in his heart

she fills his dreams

she makes him real

the love that sips through

her fingertips

reaches to his soul

as it comes and goes in waves

that clash against them

as they fall asleep

close together

warm against the cold wind

it helps, that she is the moon

against his waves

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dKlgCk3IGBg&feature=youtu.be

and S.

thank you for the inspiration

*

I sit on my tree and stare at the sky, its rich blues flowing in my veins. I close my eyes and inhale deeply the sun, it’s warmth caressing my skin. I shift my head to the side and let the wind tickle my neck. A gentle touch, almost velvety and so pure. My long dark hair flows in all the directions, dancing on my cheekbones and playing against my lips.

I smile.

The world is still a wonder to me. Even after all the millenniums. After all this time.

I look up and stare at the sun, sipping through the moving leaves. My smile widens

as I hear the waves crashing against the rocks. I hear everything. All of the mankind, in one single breath and one single sigh. I close my eyes, feeling the subtle trembles of this world. The earth shaking under the tree. I think of the sharp rocks, surrounding this tree and the cliffs underneath it. I lean forward, my hands grabbing the old branches. My eyelids flutter and I let myself see my surroundings just like humans do.

It’s actually refreshing.

So mundane and wonderful.

As I lean forward I can see him. He’s here again. Every day, at the same time. One hour just for him in peace and quiet. Just him, the sea and the sound of nature. I watch as he takes his walk and as always I am mesmerized by his simple routine. I smile as he picks a long stick and draws pictures on the sand. Fine lines and smooth thoughts. I love the serenity that fills him and vibrates, not only from his gentle heart but also a very gentle mind. It’s unspoiled and honest. I like that. It fills me with hope for the world.

I let go of the branches and let myself fall from the tree. Landing on my tiptoes, lighter than a feather. I take slow steps, nearing the edge of the cliffs, my simple, white summer dress, flowing gently in the increasing wind. My bare feet touching the sharp rocks. I inhale again and make a decision. It’s time. I step over the edge and fall with joy, my wings spreading as I sore through the air. It’s still magical to me, the feel of the wind gusting through every single feather... I peak down like the bird nearby and laugh out loud. Oh, the joy. I land on the sand and my wings disappear, my hair falling into place. I take a couple of steps and join him, sitting down on the beach next to him.

Hello there, stranger. Having your walk?

He turns his head and smiles at me.

Yes, it relaxes me. Thank you for visiting me again. Your company means a lot to me.

It’s my pleasure. Is there something you want to tell me?

I had a dream today and I finally remembered it.

Then by all means, please share - I give him a reassuring smile and he nods.

I dreamed about closeness. The emotional one. The kind that you only get, when you feel safe with someone. When you trust that other person with your whole heart.

And is that important to you? - I ask gently, already knowing the answer but wanting to hear the sound of his voice when he realizes it for himself.

Yes. I need that sense of complete trust, that opens all doors and makes the walls disappear. I don’t know if that’s realistic or not... or if it even sounds intense to you.

It does, continue.

Alright... and it is a very intense thing to me. I didn’t experience anything like this before. I still don’t know if that’s a realistic thing to want, but I think there might be a chance. Do you think that that’s possible?

No. I know that it is. And now, it is also possible for you. It always was.

But how can you be sure? - He asks calmly. Staring at me with those beautiful eyes that reminds me of the sky than I have fallen from.

Because I already lived through all the time that exists. I have seen and felt everything... yet I never get bored with it. The world is a beautiful place and your heart will eventually open to its full potential.

I take his hand and squeeze it gently. He smiles at me, finally hopeful. I let my wings open and fall on the sand. Wrapping us in warmth and shielding his body from the cold wind.

He touches the delicate feathers and looks at them with pure joy. He isn’t even surprised, just takes everything that I give him. His eyes wander to mine and he nods again.

I knew there was something about you. I just didn’t know what it was. Thank you for talking to me. It really helped. And whatever happens now, I know I will make it. With you or without you in my life. Because you made me realize, that there is more to me. That I can open up to people. That I can see through my walls.

I stand up, hide my wings and help him get up, by taking his hand.

So how about that walk, stranger?

It would be my pleasure...

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Written for a friend who dreams of things that in the end, we all want.

and a song that followed me through

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1yYV9-KoSUM

I know this little soul,

she's a true wonder

someone who makes it all better

just by her beautiful smile...

she shares my passion for music

and we can talk for hours,

she's brave

even if she thinks she's scared

life made her tougher

and her struggles wiser...

someone who can't be labeled

because she is everything at once

kind, caring, with her heart on a sleeve

and if she loves

she does it all the way

no stop signs, no holding back

which makes it harder for her

if someone doesn't deserve that trust

she's wild, spontaneous and at times reckless

a thing that I envy, truly

wish I had the same spunk...

she tells me she fights with her anger

I say... doesn't matter

because that's just when the world is too much

and the goodness and loves that she contains

are enough to make her someone's favorite mum...

she's special... yes, in the best possible way

and I am happy to call her my friend

so don't fuss my little wonder

you really are all of those things

and don't try to deny it

because it is the infinite truth

feather light kisses

on my soft skin

the caress of you fingers

against mine

you are my joy

you are my passion

close your eyes my love

rest on our bed

sleep gently

as I lay besides you

the night hides nightmares

but I will keep you safe

under the gentle beats

of my fragile heart

put your arm around me

as the sleep takes you deeper

so I will feel safe too

surrounded by your love

and the feather light kisses

that you wake me up with every day

...

Call me naïve,

I’ll accept it.

Call me insecure,

I’ll accept it.

Call me ignorant,

I’ll accept it.

But call me mad,

You’ll never understand.

Madness is the leaves falling off of the trees in autumn, only to be swept away by the wind without a trace.

Madness is the blue sky being covered with grey clouds, only to wreak havoc upon everything they touch.

Madness is the roads bustling with people who are not happy but simply pretend to be.

Madness is what I see daily.

But, madness is also how beauty is seen by one person—how it is judged.

There is never one single definition to madness. There never will be. You can see it all around you. It is yours to view.

Madness can be wonderful or destructive. It can bring a smile to a face that had nothing there. It can also take that smile away.

You choose to interpret it. I see madness in myself. The madness allows me to see into others. It is lovely.

Call me mad,

I’ll accept it.

But, you’ll never understand.

Stand tall baby. Don’t back down, stand up for what you believe in. Do what makes you happy. But most of all don’t fight what’s really you. You are not broken, you do not need to be fixed. Don’t let society tell you different being gay isn’t bad. I’m not saying you have to tell everyone I’m just saying be yourself because you’re amazing, this isn’t going to defy who you are. You’re not going to be known as the ‘gay one’, you are creative, sweet, you have a heart so big that you let everyone break, yet you don’t act as if it’s broken. Don’t listen to your father he isn’t a good man. Emotions are not weakness. I know you’re going to start standing up to him soon and it’s going to be scary but stand strong, stand tall. We need to show the younger ones how to stand up for ourselves and for others. We need to be strong for them. It’s a lot to take on and it’s going to hurt later on but for them you’ll do it over and over again because that’s what we do. We protect the ones who can’t protect themselves yet, we protect them the way we wish we were protected. It’s time to take the title Heda now. You may only be 14 but you are strong. You already have been strong for so long. Let’s show how strong you really are. Just know I’m proud of you.

There once lived this pretty girl with a heart of gold,

and on this very short night,

she will dream of all the wonders of the world,

sailing through the night sky’s and touching the stars,

she will let her heart find her true love

and reunite with this girl that she want’s,

dream my little wanderer

sleep on the bed of clouds

for H.R.S.