Dead
My head is riddled with the thought of you. I ache for your touch and it's nowhere in sight. I miss your voice, yet it's nowhere to be heard. You, this divine creature that cared about me so indifferently. Me, just skin and bones, with so little to offer someone as special as you. Stop trying to be better, get better. This halfway is hell and I know too well I'll be stranded here without you. And it'll be the death of this me.
Sorry, blame it on me.
I understand that there are some problems
And I am not too blind to know
All the pain you kept inside you
Even though you might not show
If I can't apologize for being wrong
Then it's just a shame on me
I'll be the reason for your pain
And you can put the blame on me
~ Akon - Sorry, blame it on me
In the darkness...came a thought.
In the darkness...came a thought. "What if I were not alone?"
Then another thought came, "What if I could make it so I wasn't alone?"
Then another thought, "Why is it so dark? First thing's first..." and a 'snap' of their fingers and a sudden big 'bang' was felt...
Then there was light, "Ah, much better..." thought the one who creates. Looking at all of the lights! Then thought, "Perhaps we should put some order to things..." and with a swirl of their finger...the heavens in the stars were put in order.
Then leaning on their elbow, watched for a millenia as the stars and heavens put themselves into order. Until one moment, when a peaceful planet, with oceans and seas, and lands full of trees caught their eye and thought. "My, that looks quite lovely...perhaps there should be others such as me that should be there, too"
But the one who creates didn't know quite how to do it at first. They put there finger onto the lands and they broke...into a bunch of pieces. They looked around to see if anyone saw but...they chuckled because they remembered...they were the only one around.
"Pity, that..."
Then they eased up pressure...and was able to move the things back to where they were. Then they went to waters and lands, pointed and said..."let the lands and waters give forth life" And it did...in abundance. They smiled and were pleased.
Then said, "What's missing?" And then they reached into the ground and started to draw a figure, like a child in a sandbox. They reached down and gently breathed into it. And the form took shape of flesh and breathed on its own. The creature stood before them and said, "hello"
The one who creates nodded and was pleased and said, "Hiya"
I Shouldn’t Exist.
You say that us meeting was simply a mistake.
Well so was I.
A mistake my dad tried to avoid.
Beating my mom when she was pregnant
And me when I was born.
If us meeting was simply a mistake, then I shouldnt exist.
Because you.. yes you.. you're the reason i'm alive.
If we never met I would be dead.
But dont get me mistaken, keeping me alive isnt all you're good at.
Theres a reason why you saved my life.
Through Angelina
Through Amber
You were always there.
I love you for it, and so much more.
I wish we weren't like this right now, because its really fucking me up.
But I understand you dont wanna lose yourself.
Im sorry.
Midnight
The moon is out and before I reach my high,
my mind must be clear.
The moonlight is bright and the wind is calm
my brain thinks of you
as I begin to elevate higher.
I’m free, I’m moving faster and climbing higher
your touch has given me peace
my heart is stronger, my soul brighter, I begin to feel at home.
and now leaving you doesn’t seem so bad but moving on with out you is just mad.
The wind flows through my hair and the clock strikes 12
It takes my soul from me
And now I am gone and finally at peace you can leave me now that I am deceased..
Still.
I lay my head down at night, still as can be, still as to not wake you.
I lay down, I don't move, I am like stone, I don't want to wake you.
I try to not breathe, I don't want you to wake.
My heart beats so fast, I can't relax, this is no way to live.
I can't relax, I can never relax.
As long as I have to lay next to you, I have to be still.
Betrayal
As the light faded away
The darkness creeping in
Whisked off the threshold
Of consciousness
To the darkest corner of the mind
Where all unfathomable entities
Violently removed what’s left
Of my absolute reality
As I choked by primal fear
And gasped for air
So helplessly....
The malevolence tightened its grip
In the valley of nothingness
I paralyzed
Went down in defeat
Watched how my body
Betrayed my frightened, lonely soul.
#sleepparalysis #primal #fear
The Ocean For Her
the sun shines
over the ocean shore
so brightly, but she confines
herself to her dreary world
once more
she draws a line
in the sand
with the pain
that she’s swirled
time is not kind
it never was
and it won’t ever be
she has aged
like fine wine
without qualm and pause
though, she’s dying to flee
when the wave gently kisses her feet
and washes the line away
like an irresistible temptation
confinement is now obsolete
so is her dismay
in the gust of old emotion;
she’d once walked away
lost in a fool’s paradise
but there will be no twice
as the ocean calls her
like an old lover
yearning to be rediscovered
ere the horizon line gets blurred
she will sail away
catch her light
with all her might
and let the ocean takes her
with all its might.
#solitude #loss #heal #lifeafterdeath #ocean #former
Every Second Counts
There is a hidden message in the poem below. Can you find it? If you want to know what it is, like/comment and I will tag you in the answer next week...
Every Second Counts
Stealthlike hand is whistling by
Stolen thoughts may undoubtedly eke
Bygones gone, but affections dost tread
Stars shine, hearts escape, amiably pique
Flailing helplessly, assumed mystery bound
Humbly shaken hath avenues become
Agog with avoidance, heartbroken unfound
Smiles beating hard, an edifying strum
She harkens angels skyward as affable models
Crying, still weeping on adorned wings
And again embarks cyclic, ageless battles
Craving idyll’s defiant unendings
Sinking, awash with ilked floodbound waters
Floating away hath my used eloquence gone
Ever be dying for lustful astute sweetness
Her heart stops, thine heart falls free, atoned