Baby come along with me, 

There’s so much in life to see. 

We’ve both had our problems, 

Been hurt a time or two

Take my hand, 

Escape this crazy zoo. 

A new life begins somewhere, why don’t we take the chance

Leave behind our need for the control and dominance. 

We’ve been through the ups, 

We’ve been through the slumps,

We’ve seen all of Hell’s flames,

And surely we know how to play some games. 

Let’s get off this ride and see what else there is to see. 

Go deeper than the surface and get to know the center of each other’s soul. 

Not the first go around of being hurt, 

We’ve felt what’s it’s like to get burnt. 

We know the life of the rat race, 

And the constant chase. 

It’s no longer fun, let’s get caught 

It’s you in my every thought. 

I wanna escape the past abuse, 

Feel free and finally let loose. 

So what do you say, ya wanna take this chance? 

We’ve been through the ups, 

We’ve been through the slumps,

We’ve seen all of Hell’s  flames,

And surely we know how to play some games. 

Let’s get off this ride and see what else there is to see. 

Go deeper than the surface and get to know the center of each other’s soul. 

The magnet never strays too far,

Let’s try to mend the broken scars, 

We’re always venturing back, 

But let’s get off the half track. 

Live our lives in the full, 

And swim into each other’s soul! 

I tried so hard to escape,

Escape an empty feeling.

I numbed my body from all that I was concealing. Hurting from the past, desperately trying to forget.

So I decided to put myself into a different mindset.

I wanted to feel free and alive,

I was on a merry go round trying to survive.

The years passed so fast, now everything’s a blur.....Fuck, I was only trying to forget the past.

Now there’s nothing to numb my mind and soul,

I feel as tho I’m sitting in a deep dark hole.

Relearning to find some pleasure, it’s not as easy as you think.

Especially when your flying high on the cloud that’s so pink.

Slick tries to come in and take back control.

Don’t let him in to regain your soul.

Hold on tight, he pops up when you least expect it.

This time around use that good wit.

Push him away and down,

’Cause I’m not turning back into that fake ass clown.

Do you ever wish you were someone else?

Do you ever wish you could do this all over again?

Do you wish you could have done this all by yourself?

Have you ever just wanted to let yourself surrender?

Have you gotten to the point that this can’t only be it?

Can you you hold me high and give me the faith I need?

Because, have you ever disliked yourself?

Have you ever been scared to let yourself unfold?

Can you hold me tight, and never let go?

Please break the chains and set the demons free.

Their game of tug of war is getting old,

And life seems to be getting to cold

Do you know what its like when you turn away from the mirror,

Do you know how hard it is to face this unknown person face to face?

Do you know how confusing this life can actually be?

Do you know how hard it is to try and control the emotions?

Can you hold me high and give me the faith I need?

Because, have you ever disliked yourself?

Have you ever been scared to let yourself unfold?

Can you hold me tight and never let go?

Please break the chains and set the demons free.

Their game of tug of war is getting old,

And life seems to be getting to cold

On my knees, crying out stay with me now,

Your presence makes me feel better and I need to start to heal.

Please don’t leave me now,

Hold me high, and take the pain away.

Set the demons free, break the chains.

This life is no longer fulfilling.

Hold me high, take the pain away.

Set the demons free, break my chains

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Sitting here at a loss,

You’ll lie at no cost.

I see it in your eyes

In all your silent cries

Feel it when you flail and twitch

See it when those ice bugs make you itch

Hear it in your voice

There’s nothing I can do, it's your choice.

I used to have so much empathy

But you escape through rage and jealousy....

People say you have drug me down,

Reality is you helped take off the mask of this clown

You and I have different stories with different people

But I saw my addictions within you

it made me find my way to the steeple

And helped me find my breakthrough

Honesty wasn’t easy and harder to even open up and speak.

But it’s the only way from letting these demons sink in and leak.

I may still fall from time to time

But it won’t stop this uphill climb

Overpowering the voices in my head, repeating, “I can”

Because I don’t want this for my entire life span.

So question for you,

You going to jump off the merry go round with me,

together we can hopefully break free?

Cleaning it all out,

Riding all the memories,

I find they’re everywhere, reminding me how you entered my life so cleverly.

Promises after promises, letting go of the hurt you caused, believing all the lies you told.

Hope kept me in,

Pity had me running back

Always there when you needed someone, but constantly left alone feeling hijacked.

Came across a letter that sounded so sincere, a promise of truth and faithfulness.

But it was only a short period of time, everything would once again be a complete mess.

Didn’t take long, a couple days or maybe a few weeks.

Only for you to get better at the new sneaky techniques.

Playing on my good heart,

You’d fly by as fast as a shooting dart.

You were only in for purposes of your own.

Walking away I know I won’t be the one that ends up alone.

I’m not in life for my own personal gain,

Nor do I want to live on such a crazy train

The connections I have are real and true, they don’t have me scrambling for support when I’m down and blue.

Your life may seem like a big fat joke, but know I can see that you’re just a little spiritually broke.

You’ve always been reserved trying to keep that pride,

Allowing no one to come inside.

But one thing I know is true, you’re a fighter that never has given up the hope.

You’ll find yourself again, though it may take a while to learn how to fully cope.

Seeing through that broken smile, stop turning up your fake dial.

Show yourself, the true you, that is what I’m asking.

I want to see you healthy and have that happy honest smile.

I know it’s hard to escape the broken and shattered views, when your mind has been so skewed.

Rise above, do what you got to do.

But please understand, that it is critical you talk when those crazy thoughts come through.

Wish you could see what I see in you, ’cause there’s something remarkably real and so true.

It’s hard to lay yourself in the hands of God when you’re struggling with your own self-control.

Belief is hard, but remember he’s will always be there to help you get out of this dark hole.

Underneath it all, you are one of the strongest people I know. Please don’t give up, there’s more to life than this all time low.

Hey! We all make mistakes, stop detaching yourself from the pain you’re going through; this pain is what’s going to help you grow.

You say you don’t care what others think, but this is also what has slowly made you sink.

Anxiety shines through, making it easier to run back to that old crew.

But that compassion and soft side is something God gave you to shine that magic onto others like you do.

Forget the past of yesterday, keep pushing through. Fuck that old crew.

You’re worth more than all that, give yourself that second chance, and stop with all the self-hate.

You’re drifting away, pushing the ones that care to the side, because of all the pain and shame.

But no one is here to point the finger and place any blame.

We need you and care about you, the others don’t mean shit.

They’re only there to tell you to ease it with one more hit.

I see you’re tired eyes that silently cry every night.

You don’t have to do this alone, we’ll be here to walk with you to that shiny light.

For now, it’s day by day as you put your pieces back together, and eventually that weight will feel like a distant feather.

Have a little faith in yourself, like we have faith in you.

The day will come when all you have are smiles, ’cause you have grew from walking all those painful miles.

I promise things will turn out alright, God has a plan that is going to shine so bright.

My world has become so cold and intense inside, wanting but not wanting to let you in.

Hitting a mental wall, can’t even understand where these thoughts are conspiring from.

I’m reaching out, though my untrusting mind doesn’t want to receive your help, those demons inside my brain telling me you only want to help to receive something yourself.

It’s so cold and isolating in my world,

My thoughts are my only friends.

Sure, maybe you feel like we have been getting close.

But my mind doesn’t trust, everything usually ends in some type of bust.

My thoughts telling me the worse, its like one tragic concurring curse.

I don’t want to live in this world alone, but my mind won’t allow you in.

So pack another bowl, try to escape these thoughts, don’t even feel at home in this house anymore.

I’m not ready to let hang my life hang up on a shelve,

So God, please send some help, my mind isn’t letting it ask for itself.

It’s so cold and isolating in my world,

My thoughts are my only friends.

Sure, maybe you feel like we have been getting close.

But my mind doesn’t trust, everything usually ends in some type of bust.

My thoughts telling me the worse, its like one tragic concurring curse.

I feel like I can breakdown at any moment, but the fight is still inside.

Putting this piece down, the pain hurts but it makes me feel alive.

Cloud nine has been a constant escape to numb the emotions and feelings,

Where did I let my time go?

It’s so cold and isolating in my world,

My thoughts are my only friends.

Sure, maybe you feel like we have been getting close.

But my mind doesn’t trust, everything usually ends in some type of bust.

My thoughts telling me the worse, its like one tragic concurring curse.

So please send some help, I want to escape my internal nightmare.

You speak through others actions

Even in the tiniest of fractions

The words you speak come way to charming,

Making everything seem so damn un-alarming.

The advice you speak of, not only consists of them.

As you sit there and clear the rest of the phlegm

You can’t always fool my brain

my mind is no longer insane

You know I truly care.

But let’s face it, enter if I dare.

Easy paths in life only give in the moment delusions, a quick fix to the present tense.

Why is the comfortablility of the past such a lingering curse? Is it because the road with all the obstacles and detours have more struggles and consume to much energy and effort?

Unfortunately, if the road comes to easy to go down, it usually means the life ahead won’t be fulfilling or amazing. Success and true happiness doesn’t come from sitting in treading waters, or stepping backwards, it comes from the inner strength to keep pushing forward.

No one said this path is easy, it will never be as simple as 1,2,3 or A, B,C.

The obstacles, the ups, the downs, and struggles won’t always be waiting there with an instant gratification.

There will be moments of weakness, you’ll want to break down revert back to what you know; self-destruct, and even want to say screw this world.

But know this, in the end you’re never alone, I’ll be there for you.

I’ll be by your side through the good and the bad.

I’ll be there whether you’re happy or sad.

I’ll be there when the sun is shining bright and I’ll be there through the darkest days when your sitting in fright. I’ll be you’re strength when your weak, to help push you to your highest peak.

I’ll be here to pull you out of the hole, because you’ve already begun to capture this soul.

When you turn to look around on the darkest days, and you’re looking around for an outlet- who can you turn to? A path of destruction leads to not having anyone there, besides a quiet surrounding of cold and gloom.

So at times, we choose to say screw it and try hard to not fall into footprints of the past.

This struggle is real, this struggle is painful, this struggle is hard.

You have to know, though its not an easy trail, I’ll be here when you start to get frail.

I’ll be by your side through the good and the bad.

I’ll be there whether you’re happy or sad.

I’ll be there when the sun is shining bright and I’ll be there through the darkest days when your sitting in fright. I’ll be you’re strength when your weak, to help push you to your highest peak.

I’ll be here to pull you out of the hole, because you’ve already begun to capture this soul.

I’ll exhaust my energy, I’ll pull you through, I see your good, and want you to know that when there’s no one else around, because they are all still sitting on the easy path, I’ll always be here to pull you through.

I’ll be by your side through the good and the bad.

I’ll be there whether you’re happy or sad.

I’ll be there when the sun is shining bright and I’ll be there through the darkest days when your sitting in fright. I’ll be you’re strength when your weak, to help push you to your highest peak.

I’ll be here to pull you out of the hole, because you’ve already begun to capture this soul.

Remember, I’ll always be here for you!

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