Carousel of Pain
Torment!
Lament!
Missing those long gone
Searching for them
In the oasis of my mind
Abject reality
What can I do?
Tears just run
Never said goodbye
Guilt haunts me
I seek release from
This Carousel of Pain!
Going insane
Reality slips away
Stress!
Angst and depression
Key ingredients
To a daily session
Fragmentary mentality
Tearing at the seams
Delusions teem
I wish I could fly
Towards the sun
As did Icarus
That would put a wax seal
Upon my life
No lament!
No more torment!
Dialogue with the Sun
I stepped into the shade
To speak to the sun
He asked, where is my shadow
I said I had none
Reaching forward behind myself
There was a pile of sleeves
Draped over my shoulders
Were buttons sprouting leaves
Things had become not what they seem
Realizations that it’s all
incongruous
This all proved one thing
The fabric of reality was
diaphanous
Stepping back into the sun
I laughed with my shadow
We climbed back inside
And closed my mind’s window
Priestly Intentions
From deep within
this fiery light
Shadows dance
throughout the night
Embers burn
glowing red
demons whirling
in my head
Peer inside
unstable mind
golden thoughts
treasured find
Body found
inside the crate
conjured scene
hopeless fate
Shameless crime
caustic smirk
normal soul
gone berserk
Killing more
human waste
body parts
got the taste
Embrace death
bloody reign
holy man
gone insane
Endless sins
deadly intercession
all is forgiven
inside confession
The Reality Of Pain
Unrelenting pain
physical
psychological
coursing through my being
merciless
nonstop
overpowering
tearing me into pieces
Years of ill decisions
combined with
the determinism
of youthful idiocy
leading to
willful
physical
self destruction
The psychological pain
is a result of
the complete violation of
the age of consent
and the rape of innocence
creating a fractured being
and a lifelong pursuit
of slow capitulation