The walls that stood between us now 3xs more high... I try to feel ur energy but it’s like it’s gone, & it didn’t say goodbye... Now all I feel is confusion & I ask myself why oh why... Head raised to the sky as I cry... but inside I feel like I’m already dead the day that you died...

-guavajelly

Ever Shared time with a Butterfly? They really only came to dance and play... So shortly there after they’ll fluttered away... But what do you expect Butterflies never stay...

I shared time with a Butterfly the other day...

We danced and played... We danced and played...

-SunKiss

When an ultimate betrayal comes around the pain is So numbing they’re just automatically dead to you... Sweet suttle blunt death....

In my heart we held a service for you today... & I still laid wild flowers on this mental grave marked with your name... As a simple reminder that you are Dead... As a tear rolls down my cheek... I feel life in knowing that you are dead to me...

SunKiss

Kindred soul of mine... Much alike in many senses... Lost on this platform... In This realm... In this life... Absorbing this world's hurt and pain... Feeling like a sponge sometimes... Simplest rejection or bypass from those we hold dear... Or a browse of a hurtful news article or hearing of someone's shortcomings... I promise you on everything my emotions storm effortlessly out of control... I feel it as if the pain is of my very own... Bringing me much anguish for I have great desires but no powers to heal Or save others... But I won't let it stop me from doing my part and sharing love to this unforgiving world full of beauty and mystery... I try to stay away from most of the evils ppl post daily with no compassion for human life or death... I have learnt the very had way that an empath such as myself has to be mindful and guard my heart at all times... But like a magnet we are sometimes drawn to hurt and pain caused by the evils... In the most craziest infectious ways... Sometimes... Well many times I feel like a fallen angle... Banished from a heven I don't even believe in... Cursed to never truly be loved... less I find another fallen angle tossed down from up above... For I have loved and loved and loved only to usually get shitted on or emotionally neglected... Leaving me starving in hibernation for love and affection, for understanding, compassion and companionship... Passion and friendship... I'm over sensitive to the evils of this world is kind of them under over statement... my heart seems to have no end from the pain it absorbs from others especially when Justice has not been served... Especially when the innocent have been taken advantage of... Then rage and anger especially when we are told and raised to believe that we can call on someone for protection the will come, when the real reality is we can call all we want there will be no one to come and that's just me speaking from my own personal life experiences... I long to know if their is someone I can fall in love with everyday just because loving them is so effortlessly beautiful... Someone that will genuinely feel the same for me... Someone I can share my journey with and explore with them theirs... Someone with a sweet kind heart... But thick skin and and open mind... Now I could have my head up in the clouds... Very much so... And maybe it is exactly why i haven't experienced it yet... Because maybe it just doesn't exist... Or maybe I've Just had a series of unfortunate events... Filled with lack of adventure and romance I would say... Just plain dull in that area... Honestly tho I'm a mess... Kind of just finding myself after some unexpected life changes... The journey has been a struggle but one I have found beauty in... I don't break easy... Doesn't mean I want break or ever be broken... I just know this can't be all that's meant for me... This.. Here and now... My life... Im lost... I feel alone and incomplete... Im not wired for that... Sad... Yes... But true... Something is missing... That i know for sure... & I won't give up on myself or my aspirations of life and love... I can't die and leave this realm without experiencing life and love the way I feel and dream ought to be... It just wouldn't be right... I've come to far... Gone through to much and given of myself in ways that will never be returned... But I am birthing every day in New ways... I hunger for knowledge New and old of our origin... Of love and the meaning... A journey the events of our today's world has brought on but that have really always lingured in the back on my mind... On the tip of my pen... In hidden pages of my notebooks and journals... This jouney has led me to separate myself from my religious upbringing... I've never felt a passion for knowledge of my/our orgins Not the way I do now... Like a deep burning I can't avoid... Tho deceiving truths have broken my heart in ways that i never thought to be possible... The deciet and bamboozlement... I rather live in truth than die in a lie just because I was raised in it... Religion to me has become no more than a means of control and segregation... & a matter of geographical birthings... All pulling And tugging a little from eachother... Fighting till the death in the most horendous of ways just to claim right to the "REAL" God... Don't get me wrong I never said no good come of it like hope & supports of sorts, even a sense of belonging... I could go deep into that but you're a smart one... Im sure u know where I'm going with that... Not sure about much I was raised to believe in... Like when everyone on the island scorned me and my family because my father was ill with the virus... My holy Christian isalnd/home... Ready to toss us like we were death ridden... So much for brotherly love and compassion.... Even my teachers school and church and best of friends shun me because their peers & parents told them not to... Because they thought they too would be infected but they were wrong... Just like I've grown to the realization that man/ppl have been wrong about many things... Fearing the unknow and living in ignorance for looking down on ppl like myself who explore when the obvious presents itself... But mant have no interest or desire to explore or research knowledge for themselves... Comfortable with things as is... When the obvious says otherwise... But that's a whole other segment of thoughts and feelings... My list of unfortunate events go on forever it seems... My childhood was no stroll in the park... More like a toss down the mountains across the forest and through the mud with scattered flower patches along the way... & I only share this because I want you to know upfront I am a piece of work to love... But one that's worth it above and beyond some... So much love to give... So much life to live... Maybe one day one night... One lifetime soon u will be the one to journey with me down memory lane as i laugh and smile cause their only distant memories... Blemishes of my past... Written in time to remind me of my strength... My story... My Journey... Me... I want to share this love with someone who know what to do with it... How to nourish it... For my love is beautiful... Kissing away all the fears... Holding u close always near... Whispering lullabys in ur ear... For a love like mine is simply rare.. Others can't comprehend... Other's can't compare...

-SunKiss

Chirp

Buzz

Sunshine & Trees...

Splish

Splash

Waves chasing breeze...

Mountain tops

Full of snow...

Volcaono sites

Ready to blow...

Thunderstorms

Loud Lightening flash...

Fires that turn

Forests to ash...

Waters that crash

Whole cities flat...

Here or there

Where ever you're at...

All in its on

Sweet twisted way...

Nature's signs

Of daily play...

-SunKiss

I knew this would happen... Sooo ITT announced closure of all its schools immediately... So students, staff and and faculty left with no education and no jobs all at a great loss... Especially students... A great financial loss, time lost & educational loss... Dreams, goals and careers all thrown down the drain in the blink of an eye...

Shame on you #ITTTECH

Take me into the night...I can show you the time of ur life...I can be ur vixen I can make it feel all right... Don't know much bout love cause I ain't never been done fare...But for the time of your life we could have something exotic, beautiful & rare... I just wanna be free like the wind blowing through the trees...Have a love that will knock u off ur knees... Have a kiss so sweet, cherry pie ain't got nothing on me... Got juices like the honey from a sweet honeybee... And I'm so fly intellectually you will never get enough of me...

~️SunKiss

It never stood a chance... For I see now that you were simply my Karma... Bitter, sweet, nasty one at that... Crept in & devoured my emotions... But they only melted in your mouth sweet & sticky like cotton candy... ( you know the fresh fluffy kind that you get from the fair...) And you were addicted yet afflicted by my love yet your lust... Hollow depths with no ending... You devour emotions like air that I breathe... While I gasp for the lack of your loyalty... Like being held under water the pressure to breathe has finally been released...

-SunKiss

"Broke Fridays" always lead up to more...

In the end there will be something special in-store...

So for now I say good bye to any excess spending...

Stick to my plan, for there will be no cheating, no bending...

Like Fridays when I steal a little deserved time away...

Bush Garden bound or Daytona Beach for the fam and me to play...

Cruising in the evenings out to eat with my sons... 

Catching a late night movie never stressing about the funds...

Life is not easy but we work hard for our family...

And this time around the year we all buckle down financially...

The way we pull together never ceases to amaze me... 

Just to enjoy each other, be loved, feel home, feel free...

I guess "Broke Fridays" still make me smile when I think of the Holidays to come...

All the fam and friends from different places, all the food, drinks and fun...

With life and all the worldly hurt and pain...

Nothing feels better than the thought of being around all my loved ones again...

-SunKiss JC