Hello? Is anybody there?

Yes, I'm the one you've been looking for. Now let me ask you something, do you know who I am or this one would be better I guess; do you recognise me at all?

No, I don't so how about introductions hmm, sounds fair cause you really are getting on my nerves, so my advice to you would be; just be quick about it and get the hell away from here!

Why? Are you scared of what you might here from me?

Why on earth would I be scared of a moreon like you? Tell me!?

Because I am you. Or if i'm being precise here, I'm the ugly version of you, something of your own making and now you expect me to vanish into thin air? Not that simple dear

Can anyone take this clown away from here? Anyone up for the job? Anyone!!!!????

They won't be able to hear you?

Why are you a magician? Did you put them under some kind of spell in order for them to lose their senses?

You don't possess such a quality so how can I?

All right then, Prove it, prove it to me that 'you' are 'me' or some kind of version of me.

Now you're getting it right I'm one version of you, there might be others as well but I think what really matters is that how really came into existence but I warn you that this might be a little difficult for you

How about you enlighten me

It'll be like taking a walk but not in park but somewhere dark

ooohhh I'm scared and where exactly will I be taking this walk

In your worst nightmares except the fact that you'll be awake and you'll be reliving your worst memories, it will be as if you're there right now and trust me you don't want to go there.

All right enough of this nonsense just tell how to get rid you

It's quite simple actually; start visiting all your worst memories but once you start you can't stop or you'll remain trapped in your own mind for eternity

Ok, tell me one thing what part of me or what part of my consience made you?

Your fear, doubts, traumas, this all must be sounding familiar but what about the lies or what you hid from the rest of the world? It haunts you, doesn't it? Till this day it haunts you right? You thought you'll get rid of all that? But no, your efforts to suppress everything has made matters worse.

Then tell me what am I suppose to do? There has to be a way to get rid of all this, this mess I made.

My friend you created an entire mountain out of messes such as that one, maybe a few of those were far worse.

What am I suppose to do?

'Find me' and with that my reflection, wait I don't know what it was but it vanished, and till this day I'm searching for it, I know I might sound crazy but believe me they are the only ones that could tell me where to look and how to fix all this mess

I see.

Aged about 5-6 years and modified over time :P

Gwaine got up from his place to gather more fire logs, as he got up Robin turned to Iseldir and tried to follow Gwaine but Isledir gave him one daring look and he sat down. Although he remained seated Isledir looked worried when they were left alone with Merlin.

A little bit frustrated and scared Robin said ‘We could have gone with him but you had to stop me’. ‘I'm your chief, you shouldn't be questioning me like that’ said Iseldir with a little huff. He looked back at Merlin and said ‘Robin you must have faith’, he looked tired. He was already scared to even think of how it would be to suffer the wrath of Emrys who basically was weak and in need of care, along with this he had to deal with a young druid who was quite impatient. Yet Robin had to be there as he was young and of course being a druid he understood the importance of Emrys in their lives. He might try to get along with him and help him overcome his grief and take his responsibilities as being the most powerful sorcerer ever and lead them as he was is destined to do.

“You are dragging us towards our deaths and you expect me to have faith” said Robin also looking at Merlin shaking his head in disbelief, he was out of words and didn't knew what else to say. Isledir was about to speak when he looked up and saw Gwaine with a handful of fire logs. They both got up and took some of the fire logs and helped him build the fire and the three sat next to it.

The whole situation was quite awkward without Merlin's participation to do all the explaining yet Isledir held on to his faith and spoke placing a log into the fire “your friend is weak, you should look after him”. Gwaine was staring at Merlin wondering what this was all about, he then turned his attention to Isledir sitting on his right side. “How did you kill Morgana?” asked Gwaine, he seemed quite calm but by looking at his expressions it was quite clear to Isledir sooner rather than later he had to deal with it. Isledir had lots to say, but he felt entirely speechless, gathering his strength as he tried to speak Gwaine said “don't! ...., don't come up with an excuse, I know, one of you killed her”. Not sure what else to say Isledir asked “how can you be so sure”?

‘Percival my friend here, he and I tried killing her but nothing happened, he stabbed her with a dagger but it appeared that she was completely unharmed’ said Gwaine in an effort to, defend himself and the knights. Understanding his curiosity over Morgana's death with a blank for an explanation Isledir tried to smile and said ‘because she was a high priestess, only the most powerful among the sorcerers could do such a thing’.

Leon, Percival and the other knights could clearly hear them and wondered if the sorcerer at Camlann had something to do with Morgana's death after all he helped them win the battle. Leon finally spoke up “Do you think that this sorcerer is the same who defeated the Saxon's army”, he knew that the druid was smart and he'll not get a straight answer. ‘Obviously you are here so...., I believe you must know that a sorcerer defeated them’ he said trying not to react. The druid knew that it wasn't exactly a good time to be hiding things and as much as possible the truth about Merlin should be revealed. At last he broke the silence by saying ‘we are not sure yet but we do believe that if a sorcerer can stand up against an entire army, then possibly he can kill a high priestess’.

Merlin was sleeping soundly, Gwaine went to check up on him and said looking around at the camp ‘he sleeps soundly and so shall we’. “Someone needs to keep a watch” said Leon as he gave Gwaine a stern look. “I will” said Gwaine, he turned back to look at Iseldir and Robin and said “both of you, rest for now and leave him to me”.

The knights arranged their bed rolls and laid down, and Gwaine went back and joined the druids. He talked to the druids about general things, half an hour went by and all went quiet and they assumed that the knights were fast asleep where as they were still wide awake listening to their every word. They didn't trust the druids and even Merlin who to them was, now no more than a stranger, not after all that they had witnessed, they knew they will not get the real picture so they pretended to be asleep.

Personally I think it's a disease some what like cancer, you leave it unchecked and it will eventually spread. Normally diseases harm your body, organs and your entire system but depression, it damages your soul and science has proven this; mind over body and the soul is like the electricity to this C.P.U. That mind will simply start to detect your files being corrupted by unidentified bacteria. Once depression kicks in your mind will be hacked, it won't matter how intelligent, creative and witty you are, it will all go out of the window. If you accept that you are a loser or no one loves you then trust me it will happen, indulging in self-pity is like watering a plant called depression, so it will only grow and the more you will water it, the faster it will happen. This process towards depression is slow but if gone unnoticed; it could bring grave consequences, you could end up poisoning your own relationships, your dreams and everything you love but despair not, all is not lost. Will power the fighter in you fighting the battles of life is hidden within that very soul, don't let that fighter be beaten up like a football; always kissing people's feet, just don't give up no matter what  comes your way. Everybody goes through mood swings, high n lows but you gotta watch out, there comes a point when your sadness and frustrations begin to multiply and then evolve into something completely different. The longer it lasts the more dangerous the situation gets and then your roof will end up collapsing on your head. Who doesn't have problems in life, no matter how appealing their life might seem but there's always water under the bridge, whether you see it or not depends on how clear your vision is and how clear you want it to be. Along with this you have to remember it's a package deal, you can't get all the good things in life, it's always a combination of good and bad, for the good parts rejoice them and for the bad ones; well if life punches you in the face, bear the pain and consider your scars to be part of your attire, they will make you look stronger and beautiful like no other.

From my blog: conceptsncreations.blogspot.com

My dearest,

I will never look back Zohra, believe me after the condition you kept for me to prove my love to you, you will long for me after you begin to realize what you might have lost and maybe one day when you’ll look for me; believe me when I say that I’ll be waiting for you to remind you of each and everything you said but never will I abandon you. Be sure of one thing that you’ll find me exactly where you left me, it will only be in body that I’ll walk the journey of life but my soul will remain exactly where you left it.

Oh my love-the water to my soul, they say that love at first sight is merely attraction but when I saw those eyes of yours-the only thing I could see of you, the window to your soul; I knew then that I need not see anything else apart from them to know who you are and where you truly belong. You belong next to the very person you seek and you seek someone who loves and cherishes you, respects you as if you were their equal; in other words someone who understands you like your image in the mirror and believe me if you let me show you’ll see that I am probably the only one that truly does.

Love worth the world to you

The one whom you’ve entrapped in your beautiful eyes

You are my bundle of joy, my light guiding me every step of the way, for you my heart beats as though it never functioned properly before, my strength and my weakness, when will you understand, it can’t be put into words what I feel for you, it doesn’t matter if my world even darkens beneath the candle light I provide you with, to guide you every step of the way, all my efforts will be worth it if you just let me know that you understand what you are to me. Just shine like the moon in the sky and my world will be like it never experienced the darkness that surrounds it.