Holding onto you
your just a ghost
Another stranger
that haunts me
your just a another suitcase
I stored my sercrets in
Your just another poem
wanting to be penned
now your just ghost
A faint memory
dancing in the wind
that hush’s through the walls of this room
thats Whispers your name
theres an ident in the floorboard
where you keep your shoes
always running
chasing empty thoughts
every promise of forever
tastes like a funeral
your Sentences sound like a eugolgy
i keep the door open
i Have seen the way you chase the endless skies
And empty nights
i Don’t hold onto you
i put a period after every word you say
because you talk like a comma
like‘s there more to this adventure
i Catch glimpse of you in the shadows
in my dreams
your just A ghost
I stopped trying to read you
when your see through
your Just a ghost
theres a echo coming from my chest
I scooped the love I gave you and consumed it for myself
your just a ghost
floating aimless in the galaxy
I don’t dare ask you where you land
cause I don’t wanna know if you made some other girl your solar system
loving you Was death
I didnt belive I could die twice
until I met you
I fell from the sky
gravity prevents me from landing
I have seen love in the face of a different stranger
but I stay in orbit
your just a ghost
a mirage
invisble
Vanished like a vaper
i use to put my raincoat on to look for you out in the storm
like it was my job to bring you back home
i changed my address
i threw the key away threw it under your door
hoping you turn the lock
I forgetting your just a ghost
you been dead to me for awhile
something has died
I can taste the gravel and dirt on your tongue
the lies taste like an obituary
dont protect my heart
its been hidden away from you
you won’t scar it again
i got on the stage
looking down from heaven
I never imagined me bending down looking Over us
what a pity ,mortals who love was immortal
as you say like to say you’ll always love me
but your just a ghost
let me Rest In Peace
with every letter
I sent send
you disappered
your a ghost
tumbling in the tumbleweed
stay gone
I reach out to touch your soul
I don’t feel your spirit
I knew we died
I can feel the weight of the word lied
I throw it down like a sentence
your just a ghost
like a phantom
fading out from my grasp
i confuse the memories
i stop Asking the heavens to pen this one down
Your just a ghost
theirs a concave
imprint
in my hand
there you go
leaving traces of you
haunting
Memory lane
wont you stay gone
this Is grief
they say you can’t mourn a
living thing
i have Sat at the edge of my bed
swimming in an ocean
I no longer wish I swam into
but Heartbreaks taste like grief
if you replay the love in your head
slowed through a record player
your a ghost
I stand over our Grave
and I shake my head at you
here lies the boy
who couldn’t
love
the girl who was more soul than human ...
the universe said to destiny
O, I am fortune’s fool! . . .
Then I defy you, stars.
if only the planets could collide...
Signed oblivion
Imagine
Imagine a girl.
Imagine a girl with dark brown eyes
being held by her mother
on the first day of her life
surrounded by family
and friends.
Imagine a girl with wispy short black hair
toddling around her house
staring wide-eyed with wonder
as the first snowflakes of winter fall
surrounded by the sense of home.
Imagine a girl with long black hair
walking into her first day of preschool
looking around for friends
and finding them
running to them
surrounded by warmth and kindness.
Imagine a girl with medium length hair and glasses,
going to school every day
running
jumping
laughing
surrounded by her friends
and teachers.
Imagine a girl with straightened black hair and wide-framed glasses
going to school
being so self conscious
wanting to be liked
surrounded by friends
teachers
family.
Imagine a girl, staring off into space
as she doodles on the edge of her notebook
daydreaming about that particular person as she sits in math class
Imagine her, staring out the window at the birds outside
longing to fly as they can
yearning to be free.
Imagine a girl, saying and doing things just to get attention
then acting offended if she gets noticed
imagine a girl who wants attention but is awkward and shy when she gets it
who never actually acts herself
who is jealous of everyone and everything
who is proud yet ashamed of herself
who is confident but meek
who cries if someone doubts her
imagine a girl always doubts herself.
Imagine a girl, sitting at the edge of her pink bedspread, late at night
staring into the night sky
searching for one particular star
and wishing on it
even though she’s now old enough
to know
that dreams won’t come true
unless you chase them yourself.
Imagine a girl with chipped nail polish and brown eyes
who’d rather be in the pool than practicing piano
but who’d rather be shopping than going for a run
who’d rather be sleeping than going to school
but who loves school so much she used to cry at the end of the year
who’d rather read a book than watch a movie
but who’d rather be with friends than be alone
who hates fairytales
who cries at sad movies
and sad books.
Imagine a girl
who tries so hard to hide who she truly is
but then tries so hard to express herself
who is too shy to tell that person how she really feels
but isn’t afraid of trying out for her school play
or acting in a musical.
Imagine a girl
for whom acting is easy
because if she’s playing a part, she’s not herself
imagine a girl
who secretly yearns to be the star
but always chooses the supporting role.
Imagine a girl who is
fragile
easily offended
always sarcastic
overly self conscious
somewhat arrogant
somewhat modest
too quiet
too loud.
Imagine a girl
who cries at night because of the things on the news
who wrote in her diary about everything then burned it, fearing for her secrets
who paints her nails with bright colors, then chips it all off within a week
who likes to wear dark and pastel colors “so she can hide”
who loves her brother
who hates her brother
who dreams of flying
of soaring
of being free.
Imagine a girl.
When I die...
The pure agony of no one being nearby
I can’t even specific my version of thirteen reasons why
Whom I blame for my despair, the list is long
The pain of torment can’t be healed by any song.
Standing of the cliff, I want to turn back
To say a goodbye to the ones who may feel my lack
To tell my parents how much I loved them
To say everyone that my marks couldn’t ever stitch my hem
Thinking it makes no sense now
Because no one would care why it happened and how
The thought of living more is just mundane
It’s easy to die than to find life as gain
My presence is just obsolete
So, I looked down deep down below my feet
The depth scared my heart to hell
Already failed in life, I can’t fail in death as well.
I closed my eyes and jumped without thinking next
The air took me in its arm like a mother’s jest
Going down, I could remember my childhood
How I used to run with my friends into the wood
Father bringing a chocolate for me everyday
Mother’s embrace was the safest place to stay
How could I do this,came to my mind
I could have tried once to search my talent hidden behind
What I did was too stupid, I realised
I yelled but there was no one to find
I got up with all sweat on my face
Oh, it was only a mare and I was still in the race
My parents were terrified seeing me that way
I told them the whole,they felt chocked to say
My mother took me like a child of four
Her tears telling me not to ever think such stuff anymore
I thanked God, he showed me the right way
But, not all get the second chance to live the life with may.
park in the past
he's a bad man
he's a bad man
see got so lonely I forgot my worth
met yah back in september
don't you remeber
people hurt you
when you least
expect it
they talk shit
and they become afraid when you learn to write
and turn the pen into a boxing glove
and land it where it hit
baby it was the weakness in your heart
that was gonna be your downfall
see I warned you
play
with fire
you gonna get burned
see I find myself
creative in the chaos
see I held this tongue
now it's time to pull all serects out from under this rug
see I said I let it go
but how do I recover from all the wounds
that you created
see I painetly waited
for the right time
to committ this crime
wreck your repuation
you ain't gonna need a transaltion
for this write
this is about my libration
see my heart
still loyal to you
see I swallow the truth
cause I am afraid
what will unravel
if I let my skin
show through
cause even sercets have a cost
and lies get lost
inbetween context
see I ain't afraid of what comes next
ain't afraid to bloody up my name
see I ain't never been about chasing fame
see never pretened to be a dame
you come for this lion's mame
I come for that name
this is not game
see I am the devil dressed in prada
you can call me karma
might wanna call your mama
see you created this drama
you aint gonna recover from this trauma
never been a fraud
I admit that I am flawed
I tried to stop myself from being a savage
but i gotta go in and cause this damage
see they lies we tell in the stroke of midnight
all come to light
sometimes you gotta burn bridges you don't wish you tread
don't worry put that respect on my last name and give me my cred
if you gonna run around saintly
i mean statanly
cause your father is liar
and your brother must be judas
cause betrayal runs in the family
see I ain't from some hoboken town hinkley
i use my freedom of speech freely
see I tried that kill em with compassion
but I gotta do that catwalk down your repuation
and kill you in fashion
cause I can't let it go
if I don't address it
see you blamed me for your own mistakes
laugh in my face
when the tears where real
telling me I am the reason why I make the hard times harder
see this is the type of anger that make me wanna kill
see I can't that help I feel
see I loved you
I put that shit in past tense
cause the love has died
see you went ahead and lied
back in december the feelings hit and then you cried
saying you never meant to hurt me
had me out here almost committing sucide
see you got in my head
Nigga I wanted to be dead
everything you ever told me was a lie
I just wanna die
you out here blaming me for your life
you lied and never told me she was still your wife
you said ya'll divorced
yeah right of course
you got me paranoid
trying every ophiod
cause I just needed to feel this void
see she played me too
calling me up calling me boo
pretened to be my friend
just so she could closer to you
I had no idea she was your wife
but then I put to together
ya'll story added up like 2+2
see I was already over you
then I met him
acidenctly
trusted her on a whim
told her about me and him
let's for the sake of lillabilty and call him tim
see
I mean C
you came back again
hear I am going for a swim
in my own tears
had to face my fears
I lost him
she went to run her mouth like the town squire
and tell him
see what the fuck is privacy anymore
see she entered my inbox to found out what type of whore
I mean chore , her husband was doing
see you don't understand
I loved him
he didn't love me
lead me on
cause it was fun
he loved to call me hun
he knew I do anything he asked
hurt me
and watch me bleed
see I kept our creed
friendship
stayed in a zone
let my soul be pulled apart
by his mockery
listened to him talk about another woman
but if i dared moved on
he came back
like the flu
the signs
were undeniable
then blame me when things fell through
but I was there , cleaning up the ruins
you broke my heart , and i helped you break another
that is where my shame only comes from
see I tried to understand people
before I tear them to shreds
see I stayed up allnight
listening to how she met him and how they fell in love
and why she enterned my inbox and became my friend
see ain't never been a thot
bitch you thought
you knew me
then
like I said in the end
you'll lose the only person that ever truly cared about you in the end of this conversation
I should give you a standing ovation
for that 6 month performance
of pretending to be someone your not
see we all emotional leak
when we become emotional attached
you can't play a player
I wish people would realize that
it's a well known fact
you can't outsmart me
see It didnt take to long
for me to know
she was his wife
and the roomie he spoke about
see my pride
is my top priorty
see my lips are skilled in the art oratority
see loose lips sink ships
should have been careful
your lies have lose ends
see your teacher honey
taught you a perfect 90 degree angle into her painties
but this lesson you might want to stay awhile ,
I told you , your gonna regret the day you hurt me
he's a bad man
he's a bad man
I prayed to the lord
he reveal what his truth is
I ain't sorry
for causing hell
I am sorry , I let myself get hurt
looking at my watch
its about time , I let you go
and the past
I park in the past
and drive to the present ................
see this is the past , i been running from , cause sometimes the heart wants what it wants even if kills me
so I bleed on this page
to let you know i putting past behind
and i am trying to love you , but baggage keep following after me and you
cause the devil trying to burn this house down
see I told you don't cross
you loving a murder scence
my heart been in pieces
and you can't heal this one .........................
Sincerly , Tyla
#bloody moves #sorry not sorry # had to destroy yah # move on to the present
Joy
I feel so happy when you smile
it breaks through the clouds of grey
to the sunny days that lie
in sleep
We are still waiting with patience for the spring
when the flowers will bloom
renewed again
knowing there is more
beyond the pain
of today
although the scars of yesterday remain
we can go on living
as much as our hearts believe
We can’t be born again
although we can change
lets stay together
always
-Z