Dark In Lightness
So dark in lightness
My mind like a storm
Its clearing imminent
Still drowning life with thought patterns in swarms
Cackling laughter
And profusely shed tears
As if joy was a person
And depression her attachment and fear
Thoughts of wonder
Delight and misery
Anger in gratitude
I create like some sort of witchery
How can I be
But not all the same
Each day feeling reset
No pause in this game
A level higher
I seek to climb
But as I ascend
The deeper I dive
Into a darkness
Cast obscurely aglow
Runes familiar
They say you reap as you sow
And so I see
Or at least I listen
All I know is my breath
And I inhale as if it my soul mission
So dark in lightness
Maybe it’s balance I crave as I swing
The clouds always part
The sunlight sparkles in the spring
As the frost begins to melt
Nature assures its return
Ebbing and flowing in evolution
In its fluctuations I’m beginning to learn
I honor my darkness
I respect my light
I embody it all
So with my soul I may reunite
I drown, going deeper and deeper
I struggle to swim despite my filled lungs
But as I try to swim, the pull down into the depths increased
It is like I have no other choice
Like a game
I have to play it the way the creator want
My insides are screaming for life
But my body isn't willing to comply
I am lazy but it sounds like more
Like a paralysing force
That puts my body in lockdown
Unable to struggle any longer
I drown deeper and deeper
My insides giving up with a thought
'Is this what my life is worth?'