i stitched myself

into your skin

so tightly

i needed the severance

of a border

to pull

our seams

apart

I laugh not to cry. Life has already left my eyes, and I feel numb. I have cried so many nights, prayed to whatever gods may be for help, for nothing more than justice. We all die, and we all know it. But knowing your exact day and time is… Cold blue nights. You can’t beat death, but you can beat death in life - and I am unconquerable. I didn’t kill those children. Tomorrow is another day just like thousands of days I’ve lived alone in this cell, singing a silent Hallelujah, and trying to breathe. I am tired - I am sick of begging and waiting for the water to drain. I told everybody the truth, but they couldn't deal with it - it is a lion that no one could tame.

Every night, alone in the darkness of my room, I decide to kill myself early in the morning, but I always end up crying on my knees. All the wounds are hidden, behind the emptiness of soul. I am not empty - I swear I am not empty. And I am less always than alive, and less dead than forgive. Twenty more days until my happy ending. They killed me seventeen years ago when they locked me up, and now, now they are just releasing me - setting me free. I miss life, red oaks, and my daughter's smile. I miss her above all. I miss what I will never have. Don’t let your heart get heavy. Don’t let them beat you.

- I am fighting for freedom!

I'll be paralyzed without your hello

You are like my morning coffee

I need to sip you slowly

What will i do without your words?

They make my day move

You provide me with a deserving smile

Your presence is my foundation

My foundation is created by you

If you leave, i'll be paralyzed

My bones will be rigid

I'll drift like trash

Landing in unwanted places

But, you make my face light up

Without matches i feel the flame

Scared from the unknown

My smile might be faked!

K.j.a. (c) 2016

You are the secret

Chapter in my lifeʼs story

The one I can't read out loud

Wishing you were

The plot

The main event

But you remain

A small chapter

And not

My Forever After…..

I want to bite you

Into your delicate tender skin

Nibbling on you like road kill

Searching inside your tasty layers

Examining your body with my mouth

Tasting your soft delicious body

Marking your skin as mine

Tattooing beautiful welts

Giving you wet goose bumps

Watching your heart rise

As i savour your curves

Listening to your soft moans

My buffet

Your skin

My fangs

Your submission

I want to bite you

K.j.a. (c) 2016

I am strong,

An oak tree

I am strong

My branches stretch far

My roots run deep

And I am strong.

It is in the flesh of me that i am strong

Where it dwells in the cells and the cellulose

I am a series of chains, chains upon chains

And though I am chains

I am freer than you will ever be

For I have drawn my own map

For I am reaching for the world's sun

For With my my strong arms

And strong roots

And centralized system of chains

I will be your bridge

Between soil and sky