In the night my thoughts unleash

they get to the best of me

at night I feel the most vulnerable

but then I look up at the sky

I see the moon and stars

and then nothing else compares

because I suddenly realize

how beautiful life truly is

or how it could be

beauty lies in the eyes of the beholder

if I believe this life will be beautiful

who is to say it can't be

As the seasons change

as time passes by

each memory not as vivid

nothing exactly the same

A new week, month, or year

has a new begining, a new start

with each passing day

remember to live to the fullest

because life goes on

but we never know how long

The world never stops

time never stops

so why should you?

grow and make mistakes

but never dwell on them

As a new day arrives

as the flowers bloom

and the trees grow

know that time has passed

and no matter what happens

life goes on

Beauty lies in the eyes of the beholder

because afterall, you’ve only seen yourself in a mirror

You don’t see yourself everytime you see a puppy,

or what you look like when you are doing the thing you are most passsionate about

and even so the beauty isn’t what’s on the outside,

it’s the beauty within that matters most

There is no beauty in all things easy,

the beauty is in the srtuggle,

or rather beauty is the struggle

because the rainbow comes after the storm not before

The heart: "I can't wait to go to this party"

The mind: "You're not going, you're staying home"

The heart: "But why?"

The mind: "Because do you really want to embarass yourself in front of all those people?"

The heart: "No I don't"

The mind: "Exactly"

The heart: *Stays home*

The heart: *Goes to a dine in resturaunt*

The mind: "What are you doing here?"

The heart" I want to eat some good food"

The mind: "Do you really want to eat here while all these people watch you eat?"

The heart: "No I don't"

The mind: "So then go to the grocery store and use the self-checkout to buy your own food"

The heart: *Buys a frozen pizza from the grocery store*

The heart: *Gets invited to go hang out with friends*

The mind: "Where do you think your going?"

The heart: "My friends want me to go out"

The mind: "Do you really think you can have friends when you're so weird?"

The heart: "But I-"

The mind: "You're staying home"

Everyday it's a constant battle between my heart and my brain. The heart wishes it can venture out into the world unafraid and full of courage to do all the things that it longs for. But the brain has the higher power and it refuses to give the heart what it wants. The brain is full of fear, that the world will be watching and waiting for it to fail...

As I lie awake at night, my mind is filled with all my anxieties.

A burning feeling in my chest starts to grow.

I have a constant need for air as if with every inhale there is no oxygen.

I feel the tears beginning to fall down my cheeks, and there is no stopping the pain.

The pain that begins to to rise in my heart.

Alone in a Lacuna, with no one to hold me.

These hopeless nights make me stronger because no matter how long the pain lasts,

there is always a calm after the storm.

These hopeless nights come and go, but when I come out of it,

I am valorous.

You are hopelessly attractive...

the sound of your voice that soothes my anxieties

the look on your face when I talk about the things that I enjoy

the fact that you show interest in what I do on a daily basis

it's in the way that you laugh at my jokes, and sometimes at me

the way that you smile at me, as I try to figure out what you're thinking

or when you rest your head on my shoulder for no reason at all

when you do the things that I like with me even when you don't want to

or whenever you ask me to follow you and I usually say no, but I follow anyways

but sadly you're not mine

and you maybe never will be

so I hope she appreciates everything you do for her

and even though she's yours

you're still hopelessly attractive to me...

May you look in the mirror and at least know what you see, even if you don't like it.

Because knowing who you are is the first step to self love.

Treasure what is on the inside rather than what is on the outside.

Nobody knows you like you know yourself and nobody said that self love would be easy.

So don't whelve your insecurties, because they're just bound to come flowing out all at once.

Everyone else has their own insecurties and they're all fighting their own battles.

So focus on you and let your mind wander free from doubts, and free of a timorous fear that everyone is waiting for you to fail.

The words that you say to yourself could never be said out loud.

Speak to yourself in a way that you would speak to those you love.

Dont lock yourself in a brumous daze, look to the sun for a blissful day.

Spend time with those who lift you up and treasure your soul.

With each passing day as you improve your self worth,

you will continue to blossom, like a beautiful flower, a flower that nobody noticed until she blossomed. Not for the world but for herself.

I thought I hated you

I thought that I'd hate the ground you walk on

When I speak of you it's never anything you'd be happy to hear, i'm afraid to admit

I tell everyone I want nothing to do with you, and yet you remain in my thoughts

I remember our past like it was just yesterday, you left a mark on me that can never be erased

And yet you make me happy

Now that you've come back, I've realized you're not at all what I thought you were

You are broken and in need of a friendly face

I can be myself around you, which is something I thought I could never do

When you look into my eyes I see that you care about me, but not in the way that I do

That's why I'm scared

You are with another, I shouldn't feel this happy when i'm with you

Because I know that no matter how happy I feel, it doesn't matter

You are hers and not mine

So yes i'm scared to be happy, because I don't know how long it will last

How long until my happiness turns into despair?

All you have to do is say those hurtful words, and yet you won't

That's how easy it would be for my happiness to be gone, like a flip of switch

I'm scared at the amount of power you hold over me, so much power that it would be enough for me to run away with you

I would be foolish enough for that, but oh how happy I would be

If only you chose me

When you say my name, I am drawn to you like a magnet

You would never know this because I would never let you know how much of hold you have on me

So yes i'm scared to happy

Because you never know how long it lasts

I don't want to cry but I am too weak

When the person that I want doesn't want me,

I break

When I look in the mirror and I don't like what I see,

I break

When I turn to others for guidance, but none of them understand,

I break

When I know I can't have him,

I break

When I lie awake at night thinking of all my regrets,

I break

I don't want to cry but I am too weak

Each gust of wind sinks me lower and lower into the depths of the sea

and soon enough, I'll be sunken deep

She's the forgotten one

the one who always gets left behind

the one living in the shadows,

praying and hoping that somebody notices her

she's hiding but not on purpose, that's just her nature

she's looking for a way out, but the only way in,

is if someone comes to her rescue

she won't feel the need to hide anymore

but she also doesn't want to be someones second choice

she's been down that road more than once

she's waiting for her knight in shining armor

and until he comes, she'll stay deep in the shadows,

alone and forgotten