communication is key:

-if you can't speak to me about your dreams, i guess we aren't meant to be.

-the second you sigh at an eternity with me, you should leave; don't waste time fooling my heart everything'll be alright

-don't stay with me if you promise another a forever

-when you're heart bleeds for another from the soul you let wander, don't lie to me just to see if it was an accident or a meant to be

one thing I am tired of hearing is

“why are you failing your class?”

“trust me, i know what you are going through,

i went through it myself when I was your age.”

“you’re going to have to graduate one day,

that part of your education is inevitable.

wouldn’t you want to get it done as soon as possible?”

like, I get it.

im failing math because of my lack of taking action and seeking help

when I needed it the most.

im failing because I don’t get my homework in on time,

nor is it a direct reflection of my best work either.

yes, I know I should’ve studied more.

yes, I know that I should’ve done better.

i get it. I messed up,

and that is no one else’s fault but my own.

i know they are only trying to help

because they see my potential,

how capable I am when I set my mind to it.

i appreciate them for that,

that they care about my education,

about my future.

but i am so sick of hearing that.

”if you’re so sick and tired of hearing that,

why don’t you do something about it?”

i ask myself everyday.

i feel like i dont even get the right to complain about this,

seeing as how i wouldn’t be in this situation

if I had just done my work and studied in the first place.

I like writing essays

If I can pick the topic

If I can pick the style

If I am not FORCED to

So I don't like writing essays

And I just spent the past 6 hours of my life

Hours I will never get back

Writing a mediocre essay

That is due in two hours

And I'm tired

So it'll stay mediocre

What do I care?

Well, I like my grades . ..

OH well.

Broken promises, they fill my heart

and if you're wondering when did this start,

they never said yes they never said no

but somehow broken promises filled my soul.

I am a dolphin that's been shut away,

offense might creep if I were to Peep so I stay out of her way.

I am a drunk who's never liquored up

, I'm not a liar but look at my name.

They got what we asked for but they never asked.

The fault isn't theirs but if we compare

There’s subtlety in their ways

they pushed me aside and stomped on my name

Follow the Leader it's all the same

what's easily broken, I never gave

my love would never last if given the chance

but I'd still want it the same

I am a Dolphin that's been shut away

I'm not a liar but look at my name

Okay so first, I tried helping this kid that’s going to kill himself, then I forwarded his messages to a good friend of mine to get help, then like this counselor, & my parents got involved, & they thought it was my suicide letter so I got my ass in deep doodoo. Then that night, I tried to yk, end it all pull the last string kind of thing, then my sister saved me... It was fuckin crazy man bc all my life, I thought she hated me but she loves me & god, I’m happy she saved me. That’s why I left that site I was on, it was toxic shit bringin me down, so I cut it all out, even the good ones that didn’t deserve it... an I feel sorry for that but I couldn’t keep goin on there, I had to stop, I loved all of them like so so so so so so much but it wasn’t good for me. Then... I met someone on that site, and I saved him from killing himself that night & we became rlly close an did some rlly stupid an crazy shit lmaoo. But just yesterday, he asks me what we were and I said, i didn’t know bc god we got into it & now it was complicated. Then he said just friends. That hurt a bit bc everyone always tells me that. My ex & I, he would always want me to do things that would take our relationship to the next step, but as soon as I did it, he would chicken out & say just friends okay? You have no idea how much I’ve been thru that shit an it hurts more an more each time, you’d think I learn, but nah lol. Plus, since he told me just friends, he been ignoring me. Then, yesterday, I told him that I uh I think I’m bi. I say think because I’m not 100 percent sure you know?? I’m curious about it but I have the underlying aspects of it... I’ve been questioning it for a while but It’s getting clearer and clearer and I don’t know why but whenever I feel like I’m getting closer or clearer, I kinda get scared, as if I’m not allowed to be like that, or It’s just a stupid phase, like i’ll get over it. I don’t know why but I’m curious about it... I turned 18 two days ago an since I left that site, I’m doing loads better, I’m seeing things clearer now.