Worthless, sad, dirty, empty, confused, sick, scared, angry, overwhelmed, helpless, dead. Why couldn't I have helped? Why didn't they take my help when it was obvious they needed it? What did I do wrong? Why am I not good enough? Why couldn't I save them?
I tried so hard to save them but I lost them instead, & for that, I will always be ashamed. I just have to learn that it's not my fault, I have to accept that fact.