a bunch of slightly sad stuff
I'll bet you $10 that right now
there's a guy dipping his Banquet Dinner
chicken fingers
in the brownie that it comes with.
I bet he's got a system where he knows
how long to microwave it
so that instead of a sponge
it comes out like sludge
and it's prolly the best part of his day
I'll bet you $10
that there's a balloon in the air
somewhere.
With a note taped to the side
words that will never be said
and that those words actually mean something
special.
I'll even bet
on a cigarette
in the mouth of someone who just quit.
And in that guy's head
is dopamine and dread
cuz he knows this one isn't
his last.
There's probably someone
driving their car,
and singing along to the raido
with conviction and pride,
all of which dies
when they pull up to someone
with their windows down.
'course I don't have the cash
so don't take me up on it.
I just spent my last
on a coffee
from the gas station.
The Mystery Machine
I was fifteen, it was me, eleven older guys, and the van we so aptly dubbed as The Mystery Machine. Misfits, the dozen of us. We found solace in each other's company, and needless to say that The Mystery Machine was our home away from home. It was a place we felt free to say what we wanted to say, a place secrets were kept, a place we felt safe, it was our safe haven. We twelve lost souls faded into the night, and by three a.m. hazel eyes started driving everyone home. He drove me home last because I lived the farthest from Elysian Park. He turned off the van when we pulled up to my apartment. I could have invited him up, we could have finished the bottle of bourbon I opened up the night before, but I was scared, and even more scared of him leaving me there alone in the morning. I didn't even have to say it... He understood that. He could sense my uneasiness, so he went for my weakness and started tickling me. He grabbed my hand, led me to the back of the van, and pulled me in close. He let me rest there in the safety of his arms for what seemed like an eternity. He was so still, that after a while, I thought he'd fallen asleep. Then all of a sudden he pulled me in for a kiss while his hands made their way up my dress. He knew I was a virgin, and he promised to take things slow. He knew exactly what I needed. He knew that I needed to be loved. And in that moment when we were together as one, I was loved, I was safe, I was his, and all else was forgotten... Even if for only a night. Six years later, and here I sit writing this at a carwash, and there's a song playing in the background that reminds me of him, of us, of the rebel fifteen year old girl that I was. I'm transported back in time, and I'm wondering if he still owns our home away from home... Here's to The Mystery Machine, and all the memories it holds.
A Fight to Impress
"My son got into Columbia University!"
"My daughter is going to be attending Stanford next year!"
"Princeton! My daughter is going to Princeton!"
My son is going to our town's community college.
"Well my son is going to study medicine!."
"Oh? My daughter is going to be studying microeconomics!"
"Law! My daughter is studying to be a lawyer!"
I am so very proud of him.
I Killed A Child
The deepest secret
that I never told
was that I killed a child
when I was thirteen.
She was bright
and dreamed
of space travel
and of inventing fantastic machines.
I yanked her from
her fluffy bed,
dragged her to the living room,
turned on the TV.
I stabbed her eyes
with a steely knife
formed of
pictures
of sand dunes and
of tanks exploding.
And I whimpered to her
as darkness
replaced the life that bled from her:
"That is where your daddy is"
I took a gun
and shot her ears
with the cries
of starved children
and the shrieks of vultures
ready to devour.
And I screamed at her
through salty tears:
"It's too late for you to save them!"
Her knees wobbled
somehow still alive
on life support
from the small light of hope
that drove her youthful soul.
And so I mustered
the shred of strength -or fear- left of me,
to explain
in a soft whisper
that some people
lose all hope
that they extinguish their light
entirely.
And at this, her color drained
from red
to white
to blue,
the same colors
as it happens
that her father
could be wrapped in.
I killed a child
when I was thirteen.
I killed a child
and that child was me.
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